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An unusual dream fragment
9 years ago
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First off, let me state that this journal may be triggery for abuse victims. If you are one, you might want to avoid reading the rest.
Proceeding on? OK!
I don't usually remember a lot of my dreams. That realm rarely needs to communicate with this one, and usually keeps its own confidence. MOST of what I remember are fragments of the usual post-processing of the day's data, most of which can be traced back to specific sources (games, videos, books, music, personal experiences, etc).
Occasionally, though, something unusual happens.
The other morning, I was sleeping in a bit (or as much as the dogs will let me). I was having a late-dream (the kind closer to waking mind) about some kind of weird job I was working. Most of the details are muddy, but there were other anthro people there. At one point, someone who I do not have a visual memory of, but who was clearly identified as a "cow" said the following, very clearly. "I am going to rape you." Oh, and no, I never did get to see what the cow meant by that, what was left of the dream fell apart about that time, and it's never come back since.
(aside)That's the trigger, sorry if I offended anyone. And, let me note clearly that I'm a firm believer of no-means-no, fully consenting adults, etc. I would neither inflict myself on a lady, nor condone anyone else doing something similar. The quote may have come from somewhere in my subconscious, but isn't something "I" would ever say, think, or do.(/aside)
Now, this is where it gets interesting. As a huge cow/bovine fan, there's literally no action that I can think of (barring bathroom play or torture/pain) that a cow (female implied) could do to me that I wouldn't enjoy. I mean, I write and fantasize about this stuff! So what does it mean? What's the message? I'm really not sure. Perhaps more importantly, I'm not sure how to USE this in a story. What's the point in getting cryptic messages from beyond the veil of waking if you can't even repurpose them into story fodder?
Frustrating as it is, I may never figure it out OR have the opportunity to make use of it. Oh well, sometimes things just DON'T work out.
Rochndil, bemused...
Proceeding on? OK!
I don't usually remember a lot of my dreams. That realm rarely needs to communicate with this one, and usually keeps its own confidence. MOST of what I remember are fragments of the usual post-processing of the day's data, most of which can be traced back to specific sources (games, videos, books, music, personal experiences, etc).
Occasionally, though, something unusual happens.
The other morning, I was sleeping in a bit (or as much as the dogs will let me). I was having a late-dream (the kind closer to waking mind) about some kind of weird job I was working. Most of the details are muddy, but there were other anthro people there. At one point, someone who I do not have a visual memory of, but who was clearly identified as a "cow" said the following, very clearly. "I am going to rape you." Oh, and no, I never did get to see what the cow meant by that, what was left of the dream fell apart about that time, and it's never come back since.
(aside)That's the trigger, sorry if I offended anyone. And, let me note clearly that I'm a firm believer of no-means-no, fully consenting adults, etc. I would neither inflict myself on a lady, nor condone anyone else doing something similar. The quote may have come from somewhere in my subconscious, but isn't something "I" would ever say, think, or do.(/aside)
Now, this is where it gets interesting. As a huge cow/bovine fan, there's literally no action that I can think of (barring bathroom play or torture/pain) that a cow (female implied) could do to me that I wouldn't enjoy. I mean, I write and fantasize about this stuff! So what does it mean? What's the message? I'm really not sure. Perhaps more importantly, I'm not sure how to USE this in a story. What's the point in getting cryptic messages from beyond the veil of waking if you can't even repurpose them into story fodder?
Frustrating as it is, I may never figure it out OR have the opportunity to make use of it. Oh well, sometimes things just DON'T work out.
Rochndil, bemused...
