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Cat died... general life update. Kind words are appreciated
16 years ago
It's really hard to just talk about it in a journal but I guess...
My cat, Ciere, named after
CiereLurepince died at only 1 years old, just at the point where I was really getting used to his company. I cannot deal with death, I don't cry, I don't think about it, when someone dies to me, they're gone as if they were never there..
but I'm finding that hard to do with this because there is an empty black hole in the house now and I want another cat (though for complicated reasons, ie, i dont own this house, I can't have one) to fill the gap.
Meanwhile I believe I owe two people money and referances for commission slots they reserved for me... and I don't have the money. I went to an anime convention weeks ago and didnt spend £100 so that I could get these commissions and the moment I got home I was given a stack of things I had to pay for...
And finally since my PC wants to kill itself I'm still unable to do digital art work, and frankly, I can't be bothered to even think about uploading things. I just want to turn around right now, call out 'Kitten!' (he used to respond to it) and wave his favourite toy around.
This feels hard to deal with but I guess if at least one person can comment something nice, it'll be worthwhile me writing this here.
My cat, Ciere, named after
CiereLurepince died at only 1 years old, just at the point where I was really getting used to his company. I cannot deal with death, I don't cry, I don't think about it, when someone dies to me, they're gone as if they were never there..but I'm finding that hard to do with this because there is an empty black hole in the house now and I want another cat (though for complicated reasons, ie, i dont own this house, I can't have one) to fill the gap.
Meanwhile I believe I owe two people money and referances for commission slots they reserved for me... and I don't have the money. I went to an anime convention weeks ago and didnt spend £100 so that I could get these commissions and the moment I got home I was given a stack of things I had to pay for...
And finally since my PC wants to kill itself I'm still unable to do digital art work, and frankly, I can't be bothered to even think about uploading things. I just want to turn around right now, call out 'Kitten!' (he used to respond to it) and wave his favourite toy around.
This feels hard to deal with but I guess if at least one person can comment something nice, it'll be worthwhile me writing this here.
time will pass, and when you do live somewhere different you'll be able to pick out a new one, and the cuteness will begin anew ,,,be well!
that being said...
I'm probably going to get a new kitten this fall. Would you think this'd be a problem, since it's the same house? It'd be hard to move house every time a cat died, perhaps in many years to come, I'll be used to the circle of new life and death... o.o
well...if they'll let you have another cat...maybe the time is right, as long as you feel like the company would make a positive difference. i just got really used to having one cat (cuz I was always a dog person who didnt like cats...until I had that one) so it took awhile before I was okay with having a different one
I kinda feel like I've gotten into the role of looking after a cat on a daily basis now, so what I'm missing at the moment is having a feline there to play with and be pestered by. It's hard to know though.
i just go t a new one about 2 months ago i missed having a kitty hes just close to a year i think quite a few porblems he had when i got him wut with worms being a runt a horrible ear mites... but i got all his shots got the worms to go and hes eating an perfectly healthy now x.x kitties can cost alot of money...
but thats sad the kitty died so young... =[ *huggles* i hope you feel better soon