I woke up around 9am, to an MSN message from my mother. After a month of not hearing from her, she would like to get together and talk next week. I don't know how I feel. I'm nervous, upset, happy, angry, scared and giddy all at the same time.

I was in to see my endo today. I have some rather bad news.

Not only have I put on 30 lbs, but my body has stopped responding to the Spironolactone. My T is skyrocketing. A normal female is around 2.4. A normal male is around 8-28. I'm currently sitting at 23, and that is up from 18 at the last visit. I'm confused and scared. Dr Gee gave me two new perscriptions. Androcure and Estrace. I'm kinda curious as to how these will affect me. I'm hoping they'll fix some of my problems and that I'll start responding alot better. I had a point after finding out, that I just...couldn't think. I sit here blasting music as I listen to this, debating whether or not I should go to the Youth Project's Queer Prom tonight. I am able to dress casual, if I so wish, but I can't do a damned thing with my hair, so yeah..

I'm not really sure what to do. I upset Kyubi today, and I didn't mean to. What I said slipped out before I could stop it.

Maybe I just needed to vent, I don't know.

I'm out for now.

-Gina