I doubt too many people keep much of an eye on my activity anymore since its been so long since I've posted haha. But just in case there are those that do I figured it'd be worth it to say that hi, I am still technically alive, and am going to be brushing off some of the cobwebs on this place and my other galleries really soon. I feel like it'd be weird for me to just start posting again without any sort of explanation even if its still a bit vague. I also kinda feel like a zombie crawling out of the grave trying to draw again. I haven't really drawn much of anything since my last updates.

To make a long story short this past year has just honestly not been great for me.

Without too many details I feel like I've been on a rollercoaster that I'd give anything to get off of. Highlights include living with and trying to help people in my family with drug addictions while maintaining my sanity as the sober loved one, my financial and living situations, and even outright loss such as having to put my dog to sleep a few weeks ago after a painfully sudden decline in her health. The chaos of it all and never feeling like I can enjoy more than a couple of weeks of peace without something else happening for me to have to stress over has had my anxiety disorder at intense levels for a long time. Which then just makes me more reclusive, and increases the anxiety and sense of shame because of feeling like I'm falling perpetually behind and can't catch up again.

I know everybody has their share of struggles too so I feel a tinge of shame to even bring any of it up. But hopefully that's enough genuine clarification for those who've been curious to understand why I've been so scarce without oversharing. Basically 2016 has been anything but the fresh start I was hoping for and it can kinda go die in a fire haha. x ^ x

But anyway, that's more than enough negativity on my part. To those who I've owed things to your patience has been incredible and I'm very grateful to you two. Those of you who've still graced me with your kind feedback such as watches and favs even with my little activity here mean a lot to me too. I'm trying to get back some confidence in my abilities since its pretty shot right now, and all those little gestures definitely don't go unnoticed. You all should see some new stuff from me very soon.


Much love ♥

- Neive