My extended family sure knows how to make me feel crappy sometimes. My aunt called and had to probe me about work. When I told her I was doing art she essentially scoffed and said, isn't there a real job you could be doing? I tried to explain I have been doing better with this than I was with my part time job, but she really didn't want to hear it. According to her, I need to be around people. What she doesn't understand though is that I do not like being around people, at least not new people. I have a hard time keeping my cool when situations begin to become intense or stressful. I have anxiety, I have depression, its a nasty combo. It makes it hard to keep jobs and not to just turn into a basket case and become even more stressed than I already am. It's really just frustrating for me. This is the kind of negativity from my father that pushed me away from art when I was in school... then I floundered for years and have only really started to be happy again when I started to put time and energy into art. Maybe it is dumb, maybe I never will make a decent living doing this... but I want to at least try.