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Let's talk about touch aversion & noise sensitivity
9 years ago
WARNING: DIFFICULT MATERIAL DISCUSSED WITHIN THIS JOURNAL, IF YOU THINK YOU SHOULD NOT READ THIS CLICK AWAY NOW.
Okay you're still here, let's talk about this for a second.
First let me explain myself.
I just spent about three or four hours with my very hyper five year old niece.
By the end of this interaction, I was fighting off panic.
I'm still calming down.
Headphones & quiet relaxing videos/sounds/ASMR are my world right now.
Things I think set me off:
-too many voices/loud talking
-too hot
-Little kid violating my space for three to four hours
(Putting her face all over me, laying on me, grabbing my arms, sitting in my lap ect).
-fear of my dog biting someone while @ my house (he's not kid friendly).
-being trapped in a car off and on for three- four hours with too many people
-being asked by a child repeatedly if I have had a baby yet. (I just had a fucking miscarriage in March & still haven't lost weight after)
Resulting reactions:
-Hyperventilating
-panic
-not being able to hear what the hell people are saying or hearing sentences out of order.
-stuttering
-speaking backwards sentences or partially gibberish
-feeeling like everything is way too loud
-my body feels hot & on fire
- touch of any kind feels painful & trapping (I had to take off the majority of the clothing I was wearing when I got home because I felt like I was being suffocated).
-feeeling like I want extremely bad to take a shower because my niece was all over me.
Is this normal for anyone else who has PTSD or anxiety?
Okay you're still here, let's talk about this for a second.
First let me explain myself.
I just spent about three or four hours with my very hyper five year old niece.
By the end of this interaction, I was fighting off panic.
I'm still calming down.
Headphones & quiet relaxing videos/sounds/ASMR are my world right now.
Things I think set me off:
-too many voices/loud talking
-too hot
-Little kid violating my space for three to four hours
(Putting her face all over me, laying on me, grabbing my arms, sitting in my lap ect).
-fear of my dog biting someone while @ my house (he's not kid friendly).
-being trapped in a car off and on for three- four hours with too many people
-being asked by a child repeatedly if I have had a baby yet. (I just had a fucking miscarriage in March & still haven't lost weight after)
Resulting reactions:
-Hyperventilating
-panic
-not being able to hear what the hell people are saying or hearing sentences out of order.
-stuttering
-speaking backwards sentences or partially gibberish
-feeeling like everything is way too loud
-my body feels hot & on fire
- touch of any kind feels painful & trapping (I had to take off the majority of the clothing I was wearing when I got home because I felt like I was being suffocated).
-feeeling like I want extremely bad to take a shower because my niece was all over me.
Is this normal for anyone else who has PTSD or anxiety?
I get panicy around kids in general, and I have to keep from screaming when one invades my space. Cold sweats, severe anxiety, nausea, shakiness, rapid heart beat, hyperventilation, etc. If children are behaved and respect my space, than I am ok. Otherwise, I have a bad day really fast.
ASMR has been a life saver for me when it comes to my anxiety and PTSD. I just wish it was quiet enough at work to use :p
Hope you feel better, bud
& Anyone touching me can be a bad surprise. Unless I ask for or am asked for a hug I don't like it.
Like I am much more likely to have a problem if someone runs into me in public(physically) accidentally or not.
& yes , ASMR is the best
Thank you, trying to get more relaxed now
As for noises, I go into rage mode. Look up misophonia. Crinkling bags, people eating, snapping noises...it drives me insane.
I also hate heat, and it's been about 114 here.
how are you not melting!?!