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9 years ago
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NOTE: I'm sorry I get into the nitty gritty details, but... this experience was the absolute worst. If you're a bit squeamish from the graphics or what have you, I'll put a short and sweet version in the bottom labeled "TL;DR"
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Here I was, revving myself back up to gear from this huge slump, when about 15 minutes from waking up and feeling really good, I immediately felt incredibly horrible.
I mean. On the floor in the fetal position whimpering in the worst pain I've ever felt horrible. I had extreme nausea, I had a completely empty stomach so all that could come up was whatever my body could find in my stomach. I was shaking like a leaf, I couldn't move an inch without making the pain worse. Thankfully, I was just conscious enough to bring my phone with me and immediately call
and 
to help me out. The 15 minutes felt like hours as I lay there in complete misery and suffering.
My pain got increasingly worse, I knew this was a kidney stone, but it was never this bad.
Normally, I would have some sort of heating element to put it where it hurt and apply pressure. Pox did everything he absolutely could to help calm me, to ease the pain, telling me to think of something else so I didn't give in to my nausea symptoms from all the pain and adrenaline. Even took some over the counter pain medication, the stuff was gone from my system in about 30 minutes. Nothing worked. The very last resort was to go to the ER.
heard my plea, immediately got off his work, grabbed my car keys, and Pox literally carried me into the car to get to the hospital. I REFUSE to have an ambulance if the hospital was so closeby.
Apparently an hour goes by, I'm sitting in the chair shaking, clearly in so much pain, losing my cookies (I love that term now) in a bucket in front of so many people in the waiting room. It was absolutely embarrassing, but they couldn't find me a room fast enough. I really hated how it seemed like I was making a scene, but I legitimately could not handle ANYTHING my body was doing. I was in full shut down, I could barely talk, I couldn't walk, the pain was all I could think about. It was absolutely the WORST sitting there in the waiting room of the ER.
Finally a room was found, I was immediately taken back, IV stuck into me about an hour after sitting there in the room just trying to wish the pain away. The doctor didn't want to put me through CT scan because of higher risk of cancer. She writes me some prescriptions after the pain is managed, and she sends me home.
I'm feeling pretty good, I'm hungry, I get dinner, everything is cool. Pox goes home.
15 minutes later, pain flares up AGAIN.
1 AM in the morning, I lose my cookies AGAIN, my entire dinner is gone. At this point, I'm convinced I've lost about 10 pounds throughout this whole day. I try to take some Ibuprofen, I try the heat compress, everything. Nothing worked. I'm in agony. The pain is legitimately like someone stabbing you with a large kitchen knife, keeping it there, and twisting every 10 seconds. The pain doesn't go away. Poor Wolf starts the trek to the hospital again, luckily this time I could walk a little, so I could get to the car by myself. Pox didn't like the idea and told Wolf to take me to his place instead to see if the pain management works this time. Things still weren't working, and poor Riley had to convince Pox to let me go to the hospital. A second time. Pox and Wolf go to take me to the hospital... again... the wait time was definitely a lot shorter... I get a room. Two shots of morphine and CT scan later, they tell me the kidney stone is 4 mm. FOUR MILLIMETERS. I've never had a stone that big in my entire life, NO WONDER it's been hurting so much!
6 AM, I'm finally released, body has finally calmed down, and I'm heavily medicated with prescriptions. Finally pass out.
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TL;DR
This kidney stone is literally the bane of my existence.
I'm on DAY FOUR, DAY TWO since my hospital visits. I have yet to pass the stupid thing, I can feel it. I know where along my body it is. It's mocking me every time I shift only slightly. I'm rested, but my body is absolutely exhausted of all energy expended on this event. I'm trying really hard to get back into gear, but right now I'm way too focused on this thing. This stupid fucker called a kidney stone that is 4 MM!!! I'm so done with it, I want it gone. I've been sucking water like crazy. I've been laying on one side hoping it shifts further. I'm doing everything. If you've never had a kidney stone before, just realize, it is absolutely the worst. I'm definitely not 100%, I'm medicated and at about 40% right now. I'm incredibly drained. I want this stupid kidney stone out of my body, I'm so uncomfortable right now. Not in pain, just really uncomfortable.
If any of you want proof of my visits to the ER, I'll gladly show you. Otherwise, I'm going to stare into the twilight zone and just wish this kidney stone goes away. Bare with me.
Pox, Wolf, and a touch of Riley were the superstars. Pox and Wolf though get a a big gold star for being there every step of the way. My body was expending absolute nightmares, and they were there in my absolute time of need. Those 24 hours were absolute hell, and the last 3 days have been peaceful with pain mixed in. I've been spending my days sleeping, laying, and recuperating my energy. I'm just not having a good month so far. =/
NOTE: I'm sorry I get into the nitty gritty details, but... this experience was the absolute worst. If you're a bit squeamish from the graphics or what have you, I'll put a short and sweet version in the bottom labeled "TL;DR"
________
Here I was, revving myself back up to gear from this huge slump, when about 15 minutes from waking up and feeling really good, I immediately felt incredibly horrible.
I mean. On the floor in the fetal position whimpering in the worst pain I've ever felt horrible. I had extreme nausea, I had a completely empty stomach so all that could come up was whatever my body could find in my stomach. I was shaking like a leaf, I couldn't move an inch without making the pain worse. Thankfully, I was just conscious enough to bring my phone with me and immediately call
and 
to help me out. The 15 minutes felt like hours as I lay there in complete misery and suffering. My pain got increasingly worse, I knew this was a kidney stone, but it was never this bad.
Normally, I would have some sort of heating element to put it where it hurt and apply pressure. Pox did everything he absolutely could to help calm me, to ease the pain, telling me to think of something else so I didn't give in to my nausea symptoms from all the pain and adrenaline. Even took some over the counter pain medication, the stuff was gone from my system in about 30 minutes. Nothing worked. The very last resort was to go to the ER.
heard my plea, immediately got off his work, grabbed my car keys, and Pox literally carried me into the car to get to the hospital. I REFUSE to have an ambulance if the hospital was so closeby. Apparently an hour goes by, I'm sitting in the chair shaking, clearly in so much pain, losing my cookies (I love that term now) in a bucket in front of so many people in the waiting room. It was absolutely embarrassing, but they couldn't find me a room fast enough. I really hated how it seemed like I was making a scene, but I legitimately could not handle ANYTHING my body was doing. I was in full shut down, I could barely talk, I couldn't walk, the pain was all I could think about. It was absolutely the WORST sitting there in the waiting room of the ER.
Finally a room was found, I was immediately taken back, IV stuck into me about an hour after sitting there in the room just trying to wish the pain away. The doctor didn't want to put me through CT scan because of higher risk of cancer. She writes me some prescriptions after the pain is managed, and she sends me home.
I'm feeling pretty good, I'm hungry, I get dinner, everything is cool. Pox goes home.
15 minutes later, pain flares up AGAIN.
1 AM in the morning, I lose my cookies AGAIN, my entire dinner is gone. At this point, I'm convinced I've lost about 10 pounds throughout this whole day. I try to take some Ibuprofen, I try the heat compress, everything. Nothing worked. I'm in agony. The pain is legitimately like someone stabbing you with a large kitchen knife, keeping it there, and twisting every 10 seconds. The pain doesn't go away. Poor Wolf starts the trek to the hospital again, luckily this time I could walk a little, so I could get to the car by myself. Pox didn't like the idea and told Wolf to take me to his place instead to see if the pain management works this time. Things still weren't working, and poor Riley had to convince Pox to let me go to the hospital. A second time. Pox and Wolf go to take me to the hospital... again... the wait time was definitely a lot shorter... I get a room. Two shots of morphine and CT scan later, they tell me the kidney stone is 4 mm. FOUR MILLIMETERS. I've never had a stone that big in my entire life, NO WONDER it's been hurting so much!
6 AM, I'm finally released, body has finally calmed down, and I'm heavily medicated with prescriptions. Finally pass out.
_________
TL;DR
This kidney stone is literally the bane of my existence.
I'm on DAY FOUR, DAY TWO since my hospital visits. I have yet to pass the stupid thing, I can feel it. I know where along my body it is. It's mocking me every time I shift only slightly. I'm rested, but my body is absolutely exhausted of all energy expended on this event. I'm trying really hard to get back into gear, but right now I'm way too focused on this thing. This stupid fucker called a kidney stone that is 4 MM!!! I'm so done with it, I want it gone. I've been sucking water like crazy. I've been laying on one side hoping it shifts further. I'm doing everything. If you've never had a kidney stone before, just realize, it is absolutely the worst. I'm definitely not 100%, I'm medicated and at about 40% right now. I'm incredibly drained. I want this stupid kidney stone out of my body, I'm so uncomfortable right now. Not in pain, just really uncomfortable.
If any of you want proof of my visits to the ER, I'll gladly show you. Otherwise, I'm going to stare into the twilight zone and just wish this kidney stone goes away. Bare with me.
Pox, Wolf, and a touch of Riley were the superstars. Pox and Wolf though get a a big gold star for being there every step of the way. My body was expending absolute nightmares, and they were there in my absolute time of need. Those 24 hours were absolute hell, and the last 3 days have been peaceful with pain mixed in. I've been spending my days sleeping, laying, and recuperating my energy. I'm just not having a good month so far. =/
Also I'm an idiot and didn't realize I wasn't replying directly to your reply. Duuur.
If or when I get a kidney stone, I hope to have friends who are half as wonderful as yours ^_^
I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. That's A huge stone... i hope it passes soon. :( Get as much sleep as you can, and drink tons of water.
What about cranberry juice?
Get well soon<3