A lot to cover so I will just dive in. been kinda trying to psyche my self up and get back into a full work load, while I'm not at 100%, I got a laptop set up so I can work easier while hooked up to my medical crap and such. My work load on average is about 60 hours a week. About 30ish goes toward the comic, the other 30ish goes to knock out commissions. Frankly Its stressful, because meeting dead lines and due to the fact there is no half-assing. I have to give every work 100% every day, all day. All together it is something I willing tackle every week. I think of this as 'paying my dues'. But now something has changed. Now there is so much more on my plate. I have been diagnosed with a condition that I will have the rest of my life, that will make me change the way I live my life. It means trips to the doctors at lest once a month for a long time. New routines to keep up with, medications and physical therapy, and figuring out how the hell to pay for it. For about a month I have been living my life form the recliner in my living room, I just got to where I can get up and get things own my own recently. I can work at my desk for about 4 hours at a time at best before I have to go put up my leg and try to get the swelling down. Seeing how long I can make it between pain pills that leave me felling like I'm in a drunken stupor. Lastly there is a debt looming over my head. One that make me have to consider exactly how large am I allowed to dream, what kinda of life can I reasonably aspire for .The downsizing of hope has been the worst of all of this. I am bracing to move forward, but it is all very intimidating. All I can ask for is please bear with me, if something is a day late, or less then 100%, I'm sorry. I have picked up a few more albatrosses and haven't acclimated to them yet, but I will. Thank you all for you time and all of the kind words I have all ready received. I will be back in full force as soon as I can and will stay optimistic. Diamonds come from an unreasonable amount of pressure over and unbearable amount of time. I never expected my attempts to escape mediocrity to be easy. I will over come.