Yea im still here and staring out my window waiting for my true love to come yet I know that will never happen in this life. Maybe the next life? I truly am not sure. It sucks to be alone. I look in the mirror and my reflection is not me. Who is this human looking back at me? I will never understand why I was born this way "a human". I would trade it all to be a dragon or gryphon if they ever existed. I believe in my heart they do exist but maybe on an interdimensional parallel plane of existence. Another world.

So alone...
Im equally male and female in spirit. Would i spend a year of my life as a real life gryphon? To have a mate and lay eggs bearing offspring from my womb?
Yes, yes I would. I would cherish every moment of every day I lived for that year. But I wouldn't want it to be a year. I would want it to be forever.

I can never gaze deep into a lovers eyes who i will never know. I dream sleepless dreams not knowing why I am here, What is my reason for existing. Was I born just to suffer? Ill never know. My life is along the lines of cold hard scientific facts. I know what I yearn for is impossible. But my heart aches and I cry if I think too much on it.