So, I'm sure anyone who's been actively watching me has noticed the lack of art in recent months.

See, the thing is... I've been dealing with a whole lot of stress in my life.

Even when I was little, I was socially awkward and found it difficult to commit myself to things I didn't enjoy. As I've grown up, those same problems have revisited me time and time again...

And... right now, I'm at a point where it's all too much. My depression and anxiety have built over the last several years, especially with all of the times I've had friends of mine turn on me. For months - no, years - now I've found it hard to work up the energy to draw, and now, just the mere thought of doing almost anything - drawing, putting in a job app, even speaking to most people - is enough to make my brain go crazy and my neck to tense up. I have so much anxiety that it's affecting me physically.

Recent events with people close to me have only exacerbated the problem. Most days, I don't even do anything because I just don't have the energy. I have to constantly play video games to keep my brain focused enough that the anxiety doesn't take over my thoughts - and that's if I can get over my indecisiveness on what I want to do and actually play one.

I want to enjoy my art and make more of it for you guys, but it's very hard for me to do so. The last time I sat down to do a picture I really wanted to do, I spent two hours on it and then just... felt so disappointed in how it came out that I've had little drive to try again.

I know you're all here for me, and I appreciate it, but that's something I already have and it's really not enough anymore. I'm sorry.