I will apologise as well, because I am going to be trying to... push? my commissions a little more. I've moved recently and funds-wise things aren't going all that smoothly. I mean well, not much is actually going smoothly. We still don't have internet, we're having to get a lot of maintenance done on the house, money is tighter than expected and I'm probably going to have to be covering double the rent I'm supposed to be at least for the next week or two because... well... It's either that or be late on rent and maybe get kicked out so. Yeah. That's excellent. I'm going to try and get a job at a call center but I don't think I need to say that that sort of job is probably going to drive me mental. I'd much prefer it if I could make ends with what I'm currently getting plus stuff from a more creative income.

I know not everything happens the way we want it to, or need it to. But I've wanted to move here for... years. Since leaving High School. Since I was in High School. I've always been places where the environment was either lonely or hostile and just when I'm finally away from all of that. When I'm finally close to where events are happening and my friends are and there are... opportunities... More stress just comes along to punch me in the face.

I don't want this to come across as some... cry for attention. I'm not at deaths door and I don't have an eviction notice. This isn't about.. trying to get attention because of my own personal problems. I guess it's just a bit of a vent. I'm stressed out and I'm not that stable emotionally and yet I've got.. a lot of things going on that are just going to set me back. Set me back when being here was supposed to help make my conditions better. So I'm just... putting it out there. If it seems like I'm overly pushing my commissions or specials or auctions.. this is why. End of the day, I need money, and I'm going to try and get it however I can, within reason. I want to make a job out of this, somehow. This is what I do and all I can really do career-wise.

I hope it'll all settle out soon. I'm sure it will. Things always work out? Gotta give it time, and all that. I've only been here... nearly two weeks? Mm.