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9 years ago
One thing that has been a pattern in my life is that I have to basically self diagnose. And it's not what you are thinking, not in the bad hypochondriac way. My family has a tendency towards "work through it, or work around it" and while that works sometimes it isn't so helpful for major medical things. When hearing "try harder" towards things like depression or dyslexia, you kinda just learn to deal with problems and not make a fuss.
That is how I lived half blind my whole life without anyone really knowing until I was curious about surgery earlier this year. I just kinda dealed, learned to make due... read slowly, close my eye when I would focus, things like that. It was actually funny to me that my mom asked me later the night of my eye exam if I needed help down the stairs. x3
Well when I was with the trainer I was having a major major problem with the muscle above my knees, and the whole time he kept having to correct my form to keep my feet pointed forward and not out... Well I did some online research on muscle groups and some testing on my knees and the knees of a couple others around me. Turns out I'm heavily knock-kneed. (like the "I have to pee" stance, but all the time) Never knew because I just learned to adjust, I would flair my feet out wide, so when I would bend my knees they went forward instead of in.
So another newly found difficulty! More goals to overcome! I think the best option is to just keep working on developing the muscles that I've never used. Try to correct my posture and fight through the soreness.
PS I'm really trying for no more depression spew journals. I'm sorry. <3
That is how I lived half blind my whole life without anyone really knowing until I was curious about surgery earlier this year. I just kinda dealed, learned to make due... read slowly, close my eye when I would focus, things like that. It was actually funny to me that my mom asked me later the night of my eye exam if I needed help down the stairs. x3
Well when I was with the trainer I was having a major major problem with the muscle above my knees, and the whole time he kept having to correct my form to keep my feet pointed forward and not out... Well I did some online research on muscle groups and some testing on my knees and the knees of a couple others around me. Turns out I'm heavily knock-kneed. (like the "I have to pee" stance, but all the time) Never knew because I just learned to adjust, I would flair my feet out wide, so when I would bend my knees they went forward instead of in.
So another newly found difficulty! More goals to overcome! I think the best option is to just keep working on developing the muscles that I've never used. Try to correct my posture and fight through the soreness.
PS I'm really trying for no more depression spew journals. I'm sorry. <3
