I know things happen for a reason. But why did I have to be a human... I don't like the feeling of being human. It makes me feel like I don't belong. It's not what I'm suppose to be you know what I mean? I join the fandom because it gave me a chance to be something that I wanted to be. It gave me online friends who help me feel like I belong. I have a family who understands me better Than my human one. But here's the problem... I have been feeling very down lately. To the point I can no longer sleep at night. I become depressed, and have the strong feeling I don't belong to where I have had suicidal thought. My mind has made it to where I'm wanting my dream world to be real to the point I'd do anything to make it real. Even if it means leaving loved ones behind. I sooner or later talk myself out of it but then it comes back. I know I have a life that is better than most peoples but, no one's life is perfect there always flaws and regrets. But I am thankful for everyone who has helped though everything but there's still a long road to travel. I just hope I don't travel it alone...