Mostly just mentally exhausted.
So I think I can pinpoint where my life started to take another dip into unfavorable circumstances. Probably right after we lost our last jobs. Then lost our apartment. We ended up moving in with another in-law and now we are having to move again due to yet another crazy land lord who wants to boot old tenants out. The only place we have available to move to is back to my parents. On one hand my mom has mentioned offering us a small house and on the surface I hope that it will be ok and that they will give us a place to live and help us get back on our feet, but on the other hand I am terrified that by accepting that offer that I will be subjected to more verbal abuse. But it is literally this or a homeless shelter and the shelters here are not co-ed so I would not get to even be with my hubby and I for sure could not have my cat or definitely no bath tub. My mental state has started to decline and I'm having trouble holding everything together, I really thought that we would have things in a better situation by now but if anything I think it is worse. We are both depressed and I know that hubby is scared too. I just really don't know what to do anymore.

I've also recently had to deal with relatives on both sides basically saying that any mental health issue that I have is not real and that I can just work through it. Another likes to invalidate anything that I am going through by explaining how he has been through much worse and was able to get through it just fine. Why is it so hard to acknowledge that not everyone is as strong as you or deals with things in the same way? I have up's and I have downs and right now I am in a very, very low place and to be honest, I'm pretty scared.

All my most prominent options are risky
I'm battling depression as best I can and it is to the point where I sometimes loose track of days
I'm not sure on the dates but we will probably have to move in a month or two.

Part of me wishes that we could find a way to have one of those little off the grid houses. Like part of the tiny house movement, but I doubt that would ever be possible. I don't even know how much those cost and it is probably a lot. Just a stupid though.

If you would like to help, My jewelry commissions are open over on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/CicadaandCrow/
I can finish commissions pretty quickly but it takes me a week or 2 to ship because I have to get a ride to do it.
If you know any business that could employ someone with my weird skill set that wouldn't be loud and fast paced, let me know.

Sorry for being such a mess.