I wholeheartedly apologize for my absence as of late in terms of my art doings. Things have been happening which have rendered me pretty bummed out so I've just focused on trying to get the Team im in for Dota getting kicking with my best friend. It's been equally as stressful and there need to be some definite changes to the team and the way people play, but that's for a different post.

I'm in a weird place at the moment when it comes to my art, I feel like im committed to doing the series I want to illustrate but then i think about what I can't do and decide ''I'll do it another day'' and thus i just procrastinate. I'm ultimately being unmotivated about it and overall lacking the skill so i just give up, which I KNOW should just be solved by practice, but this thought process just gets blocked out by the anxieties I have of working on artwork. The thing that mostly effects this is that I'm currently in a situation where I live with my partner, but I want to get my own place. I work best in my own environment.

Another thing is that weird situation where you think you have it all planned out, your sleep, your daily schedule, then you just wake up and it all goes to shit. I don;t get enough sleep either because im like 90% sure i've developed some form of insomnia. ( and even when im awake at like 4am I still just feel like doing nothing.)


In conclusion really I just really want to do art but I'm ultimately unmotivated to shit. This is by no means some kind of excuse or anything for stuff, I just want to voice whats going on with myself right now so you guys get some kind of insight to my life I guess.



~ Peace