Update I guess..?
9 years ago
I thought I'd do an update, originally I wasn't going to. One of the main reasons was because of the last journal I have made. It's been up there for awhile and I feel like I need to update it I guess.
I'm still going through a rough time, I'm not going to lie. My mind makes everything ten times worse than it probably really is. It's at such a fragile state and I'm unsure how to cope with it. Over thinking, thinking about the same things again and again.. it gets tiresome when your mind starts creating scenarios in your head to which you start believing when they're not true.
I have been trying to draw again for the sake of getting my mind off of things. Which can lead into deep trances or even fails where it makes me not want to draw at all because I'm feeling like total shit. It really sucks when something you enjoy doing becomes almost like a chore. I really hate to be that "overly dramatic" one but it's real hard at points.
I refuse to go into detail on what this is about cause I feel I need to be able to deal with this myself. I feel as if I have a snow ball chance in hell to get what I want at this point. So many mixed feelings and thoughts I'm not even sure of myself anymore. I'd hate to think I'm holding onto false hope, living in some fairy tale fantasy..
I'm not going to say I'm unhappy, cause in a way I am happy. Another part of me though resurfaces and that's when I have a hard time, this is common than most think. I hope everything gets better soon..
As for drawing I started picking it back up as said above, been trying to do different styles once again and try to get out of my comfort zone and try things I never thought I'd do or want to do. So you may see different things, just experimental work, working on a style and such. I want to expand as an artist. So if you want to commission me, keep that in mind that it probably will be different than the things in my gallery, really just depends how I see it fit. But if there's a style you enjoy then I wouldn't mind doing it in said style.
Also, thank you for you all supporting me, watching, and favouring my work.
It means the world.
I'm so tired.. ugh
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