Well I'm taking another position within the company I'm working for. It's not ideal of course but at least I'll still have some income coming in not as much as I was making.....but I don't plan on staying that long though because I'm still going to look for a design job I just really need to re-brand myself now because I wanted to go in a different direction with my design work and I never got around to doing so. Now I really need to get something done and update my website before I even try to look for something else really. They did let me take my last vacation next week so it'll be nice to relax and I can actually get some stuff done. I just wish I knew when and where I'm going for this other position. I was also maybe thinking of doing freelancing part-time if I can get some clients. I just need to get some newer work out there to get noticed. We will see.

And on top of all this happening I have sister drama again. She always has to start something and I just can't deal with her right now. I have blocked her from all my social media accounts....I don't know if I can forgive her after the crap she has said to me. I'm so tired of being turned into the bad guy. Then she has to assume all this stuff about me. She clearly can't get over the fact that we are not going to like her boyfriend I just wish she would stop posting it publicly for everyone to see not only is she destroying herself its embarrassing and pushing everyone away any of our friends to talk or hang out with her. Heaven forbid I tell her the truth she goes on and complains about it in a post. What am I supposed to do? I just have to ignore it now I guess. She has problems and she needs help and she won't bother getting help so I don't know what she expects any of us to do she blames her problems on everyone else. She has been like this ever since she has been with her said boyfriend. She's not the same sister I know anymore....and its sad. It upsets me that we aren't close anymore and just because of some douchebag guy. I'm not going to go into details about that stuff but its pretty messed up and she continues to stay. even after having two kids with the guy. I feel bad for them most of all.

Anyway still trying to get car loan situated too from my accident back in May.....its ridiculous! I wouldn't think it should take this long to care of the last of it that should be paid. Seriously if its not one thing its another. I know a lot of people who have been in similar situations and it really blows! When stuff happens at once its overwhelming. But I have my Husband and friends to get through this tough time....but I also hate faking being ok. I'm really not ok with any of this stuff happening but I just have to get through it and be confident that I will find something else.