Just to let you all know, this will get kinda blunt with sexual stuff.

So I’ve identified as gay for as long as all you guys have known me. I’ve also done the same thing as few others on here, playing up the “Oh I want a guy to fuck me in the ass” sluttiness. However, I’ve been playing it up far more than you might think.

I can actually count on one hand the amount of times I’ve jerked off to the thought of actual sex throughout my entire life. Kinks and such, plenty of times. Actual sex, five times max. And even those times, i had to force myself to finish.

I’m not repulsed by sex, and I even find male genitalia aesthetically pleasing, I guess, but I have no interest in sex whatsoever, and would honestly rather not take part in it. It does not arouse me, and it honestly just doesn’t seem like it’d be all that enjoyable anyway.

I never really thought too much about this recently, until I met a couple friends who are the exact same way, and they didn’t identify as gay/straight/bi, which started me off on thinking for a while. I started to do a bit of research, talk to some people, etc. and found out that it doesn’t matter that kinks still arouse me, the biggest thing is the lack of interest in the act of sex itself, and it made things a bit clearer for me.

So... to com right out and say it, I’m asexual.

Nothing will really change around here, I guess. I just wanted to let you guys know that I’m ace and explain how I came to that conclusion. Thanks for listening.