FA+
Shop
Hi, it's me. Got a minute?
16 years ago
Hi everyone,
I'm going to be honest with you. I don't have any good excuses for such a long hiatus. I know I promised or said I'd be submitting a lot more things, or try to, in the future. The truth is my artistic self-esteem is at an all-time low. I just don't feel like putting it on paper at all...
Honestly I feel like a dwarf among men. There are so many great artists and great writers out there that there's a part of me that feels immensely overshadowed. Yes, I realize how shallow this sounds. "You should do it for yourself," and things of that nature are headed my way, I'm sure. I don't know if any of you have experienced this before, but you look at the art of others and you're like "how the hell could I hope to compete with this?"
Not to mention my more-or-less lazy outlook, plus the over-critiquing that keeps happening. No matter what I do, I always look at it and say "this is crap!" Then I end up crumpling it up and throwing it away. If I had half the things back that I've put in the garbage, you guys would probably have a submission twice a week for the next half year from me.
I don't know what to do or say. I don't know how to fix it. I can't say if or when you'll see my next work. Just know that I haven't changed or gone anywhere different, and I'm certainly not in some other life. I hope those of you on my list still watching me can forgive me for keeping you waiting. For some of you, I hope you remember me at all. You've been very patient and I appreciate every second you give me.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
I'm going to be honest with you. I don't have any good excuses for such a long hiatus. I know I promised or said I'd be submitting a lot more things, or try to, in the future. The truth is my artistic self-esteem is at an all-time low. I just don't feel like putting it on paper at all...
Honestly I feel like a dwarf among men. There are so many great artists and great writers out there that there's a part of me that feels immensely overshadowed. Yes, I realize how shallow this sounds. "You should do it for yourself," and things of that nature are headed my way, I'm sure. I don't know if any of you have experienced this before, but you look at the art of others and you're like "how the hell could I hope to compete with this?"
Not to mention my more-or-less lazy outlook, plus the over-critiquing that keeps happening. No matter what I do, I always look at it and say "this is crap!" Then I end up crumpling it up and throwing it away. If I had half the things back that I've put in the garbage, you guys would probably have a submission twice a week for the next half year from me.
I don't know what to do or say. I don't know how to fix it. I can't say if or when you'll see my next work. Just know that I haven't changed or gone anywhere different, and I'm certainly not in some other life. I hope those of you on my list still watching me can forgive me for keeping you waiting. For some of you, I hope you remember me at all. You've been very patient and I appreciate every second you give me.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
