when i'm done with thinking, then i'm done with you.
when i'm done with crying, then i'm done with you.
when i feel so tired, then i'm done with you.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can't hear it, but i do.
you can't hear it, but i do.

you're trying to convince me that what i've done's not right.
i get so frustrated, i stay up every night.
you ask me for an answer, and i'm so tired and i'm up in the air.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can't hear it, but i do.
you can't hear it, but i'm feeling this way
just because you say
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i will be ignored.
i will be denied.
i could be erased.
i could be brushed aside.
i will get scared, and i will get shoved down,
but i feel like i do beause you push me around.

i'm starting to ignore you, i've doubted you so long.
i'm tired of over-thinking, i know you don't belong.
now i'm asking questions - no one pushes me around.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can't hear it, but i do.
you don't seem angry, but i do.
i do.

I talked with my mother and stepfather. Things could have gone better. She picked me up and we went to the Tim Hortons on Quinpool road down the road from where I work. We sat and talked. She told me that she thought me giving her an ultimatum was unfair and that she'd never do such a thing to me. She also tried to tell me she's never once outted me to the public, while calling me by my given name and he all day. All I could do was stare at her and bit my tongue when she asked me to name an incident where she had. She told me that her version of support and my version were two totally different things.

I tried to explain to her that gender is not dictated by what's between the legs, but rather by the brain. I tried to explain that I had never been her son, but her daughter. I tried to tell her that I remembered her admitting to knowing I was jealous of my sister and mentioned that she must have known that even at a young age, she must have known I was different and she shrugged it off with a "So?"

She has decided at this point because her beliefs clash with what I am asking of her that she is unwilling to support ment, and I gave her the ultimatum of either this or I was cutting it off. I don't know where to go or what to do. On top opf all of this, I found out my next months meds will be $116 for a monnths supply. I'm never going to make it at this rate....
I'm off for now...