Yeah, it's happening.. after 5+ years my mate and I are splitting up.
Things will be better with us as just friends.. but fuck.. it's extra hard to do this when it's someone you still love and care about..
I just know my heart isn't fully in it and that's not fair to her..
She said she's happy the way things are.
I'm not.
It feels like it's my fault..
It feels like I'm hurting her because I'm being greedy.
But I just can't do it.
I'm glad she's letting me go so easily.
Even if her tears tell me she wishes she so desperately could make me happy.
I feel like the worst person in the world.

But I have to think about myself too, right?
And we'll still be friends.

Fuck.. this is so hard..