Hey everyone, it's Kane.

Probably thought you wouldn't be seeing much of me anymore, huh? I've been next to completely absent from FA since middle to late July and thought I'd just update you all about what's been going on.

I earned my first job as a lowly cart-pusher for a chain store and work Friday and the weekends. It's been rough. Dealing with people all day is mentally draining, but I've adjusted after two months of it. The pay isn't great considering the region I live in, and the two main managers of my department are pompous, adacious, self-centered, and quite frankly the customers care about our well-being more than they do. It's awful, but I need the money. Not all the managers are assholes though, some of them are amazing, but the two most senior managers i work under are just... just fucking awful. We've had so many positions for carry-out (cart pushers) and cashiers open up because people are fed up with the bullshit; yet their main focus is their happiness not ours.

They wonder why they're leaving.

I also started college, it's stressful and it's breaking me out of my comfortable routine of procrastination since I can't dick around until the weekend to get it done. I go to school every week day and I effectively have no days off. Just work and study. It is exhausting. It's a break from work though and I don't have any classes before ten so usually I get a good rest. I never thought I would say this, but thank God for school.

I feel odd about sharing this next one because it's more personal than I usually go in these journals but... I have a relationship with someone now. Well... a half relationship. I guess it's what people would call "friends with benefits". It's... Amazing. She makes me so happy, I honestly don't think I could deal with this bullshit without her. It's a little odd to not directly belong to someone in a relationship like this, I thought that in real life that casual sex was some kind of taboo only used by people who make bad decisions, but... here I am.

It's weird to do all the things couples do: talk about moving out, kiss, have little dates inbetween the wakes of life, sex... and just not be together. It has been a huge confidence booster however. The machismo and charisma of virtual Kane is a facade, I'm actually a huge nerd, haha (Not that was a surprise to anyone, but I thought I'd put emphasis on it).

I guess that's it for the update, not much else to tell, really... just thought I'd let you know where I meandered off to. If I've missed you recently, don't be afraid to speak up. I'll try to be more active when I can.

I hope you're all doing well,




Kane