Anyways guys, this is hard for me to explain. I feel very weak and fragile. And I don't know how to put it without being embarrassed or humiliated. But I don't even feel like a guy anymore. I'm gonna try to explain as best as I can so you can follow. Maybe to you not a big deal but to me now I'm scared shitless and have no idea how to chill out or deal with this....so here we go.

About a year ago I went into my physical healthy and strong. No problems. Was sexually active already but I had no diseases or any problems with my.....parts down there. I did however had a slight problem with my urine track. That was it, take some meds so it didn't start a infection. Got cleared up and after that it was ok.

Last month I started having blood in my urine, went in. Same thing, this time all along I STILL had it. Turns out It spread to my testicles. Infected, minor pain nothing major required..no meds...or ice packs. Keep in mind I wasn't sexually active so this was going on for awhile.

Went in a few days ago last week, right after my job interview...test comes back. Advanced
Epididymitis!!! like what? To keep it from spreading to infect or get involved with my blood stream they requested a surgery down there v-v.

Now first week of October I'm going in, they plan to cut off the bad infected part. Not the whole thing. If its super bad they might cut them out. I'm just super scared now, I am under a lot. And friends and people who ive talked to lately know I am. I didn't want to say cause of embarrassment. So I'm sorry, now you know. I want to keep my friends and followers informed.

It's a painful surgery where I might lose my man parts. So I'm sorry everyone if I won't talk or post much for awhile. I just need to hope I don't lose them. And possibly make a quick recovery. My sex drive and horomones screwed up, and my whole life up and down. It will be a huge barrier for me.

Thanks a lot guys and thanks for reading v-v