To the few that have seen me in the past few years you will know that things have kind of made a turn for the worst with my mental health. Im glad I have the few friends that I have because it was good to vent some of this stuff out and get things out there. I have been having a huge battle with depression that I almost lost, it was to the point that I almost didn't make it to work and was seriously thinking of going to the hospital to start getting treatment. I was able to just tell myself to keep going to work, you will get out of it. This was shortly after Kitsune Kon, I don't know what it was that made me so depressed and almost sent me over the edge but I pulled through and looks like I will be in a better place with better opportunities.

I know its going to be a long road and I know its going to be a bit of a battle but I spend more money getting to work then its worth. 13 an hour isn't doing anything for me and the miles suck. I applied to the post office and for the past month and a half its been a battle getting things sorted out, running to get tests done, getting prints, and almost everything, Made august look bad on the paycheck front but I made it and might have to spend more but in the spending i will be getting everything back including miles to get to training and to spend the nights at hotels. I don't know how much I will be getting back in full but at least I know the hotel will be almost all of it. (might take some out because I have never once been fully reimbursed for anything.)

I'm not going to do money counts and all that fun stuff but things are looking a bit better. I'm slowly getting to be better again and thats all that matters to me right now. I might have to get a part time job but thats ok, I need this slowdown, i need this change even if it sounds bad i know that things will be better.