Considering when my problems are just re hashes in my life..... but yea they effect me more then i would like them too.

Ive been pushed to try and make my life better and un-apologetically doing so.
But i thought at what point can i take a break and just breath?
When i find stability?
When i find someone compatible with me?
When i retire?
When i die?

I dont really know and i guess ill never really know.
Im more or less just tired of keeping up with a lifestyle that i rarely have a control of whats to come.
basically ive been instilled with this " You have to do this now." kind of attitude...
sadly anyone who knows im pretty easy going person. im not really the type to rush into anything.
i guess im an enigma like that....but i dont really care....

Working 2 part time jobs where i quit one today just to save myself from mental stress. Which ive been under alot.
Mostly from trying to get my career in makeup off the ground more. some family, some friends but mostly its my own internal struggles that i cant really handle.

i guess the reason for this journal was just to get something off chest and throw it into the abyss.
Well.... i guess i ll do whatever i need to do to get better.... and thats that....

Akanite~