After hours of crying, I've finally calmed down enough...

Please excuse spelling mistakes.

Obviously I knew that it was going to happen. His health was getting worse and worse. He ended up falling around ten times this year. He started getting seizers five years ago. To be honest, I'm surprised he pushed through this long.
Last week he had a stroke, and that's when we knew things were 100% going downhill. All the doctors could do was upping his medications, changing them, and giving him pain relievers.
He survived through so much. Earlier last year, he had to get half of his ear removed due to skin cancer.
It made me tear up when I found out ... out of all the family members, we kept my photo, and my photo only in his wallet, even though I rarely got to see him.
He never forgot my name, or what I looked like, yet his niece who lived with him became his nurse when alchimers took his mind.
He didn't even make it to his 80th birthday.
My Grandfather passed away last night, after having a seizer and falling hitting his head.
The problem is, he lives nearly 3 hours away, and I don't have the money to get a train ticket, or to pay someone gas money.
My family is in no position to help either, as they themselves have to pay their way up to say goodbye.
I'd like to apologize. My life has been hectic. We had our hearing with the LTB, but nothing was done. We are now speaking to lawyers about taking him to actual court, and getting money for pain and suffering.
I have a few commissions I still have yet to complete, but unfortunately emergencies call for these types of things.

I feel stupid for spending my money. I shouldn't have bought the things I did ... but I didn't know he'd pass so soon. I thought he'd at least be around for Christmas.

I'm trying to get $250 for my sister and I to get train tickets to Hamiltion to say goodbye to my grandfather. I don't have that many supporters, but I'm hoping that I can get the funds through commissions.