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Weight, My Writing, Wild World
9 years ago
As I am absolutely pants at journals… you will just have to hang in there with me. I don’t I had an idea of what I wanted to say but that has faded…. I guess a while ago I said that I had started going on runs which, for a time, had been something I was able to keep up. Then I got my job and now I find I am too exhausted to after work. So I guess I have really let myself down there, I’m also gaining weight. This isn’t intentional, in actual fact I desired quite opposite to happen. But alas, I am far too self-indulgent and likely eat my weight in bread each week. As well as, all the other bad stuff I take in. I drink too many carbonated drinks and well my diet sucks. I guess I haven’t really tried to kick anything or change it. I like food that is bad for me. I used to be very insecure about my weight. I was bullied a lot… seems to be something of a stereotype for kids that get over weight at some point during their schooling- my older brother being a key contributor haha. Nowadays, I don’t really care… I just don’t want to die from some dumb thing due to being overweight when I’m like 65. My Dad died when he was only 55 (56?)… Sure being overweight didn’t kill him but it did lead to a lot of the health problems he suffered. But yes… basically, my endeavour to lose weight isn’t fuelled by a superficial pursuit of imposed aesthetic. I just think it would annoy to know that I was dying because of something I could have prevented when I was 23. Though, I have always maintained that I would be quite happy to die when I was 50. I think that 50 years is more than enough time and anything extra is a bonus… but I’ve thought that since I was around 8 years old… so I don’t know… My anxiety tells me that people might think negatively upon that point. ‘That I should be so privileged, that such apathy towards my continued existence is misguided and selfish.’ I should be ‘grateful’. I am, honestly… I just think 50 is a good time to go. Before your body decides it’s time to start killing you slowly anyway. So to a degree… being overweight upsets me because I don’t have to be. And I personally dislike how my flab looks on me.
I’m not exactly sure what my solution apart from to just shut up and do something about it… so yeah. I guess I will let you know how that goes.
Haha I really didn’t plan for that to be a thing but there you have it. I do have a question. Would anyone be interested in reading my writing? I presently have two story projects on the go. One has fallen by the way side and the other I am taking my time with. They aren’t anything FA related… like we all know why you’re here ;). They are projects that to a level I am trying to consider as something I would really quite seriously like to get published one day. So yeah drop a comment or a pm letting me know what you think about that. I’m not expecting anything but it could be a cool thing to do.
I’ve been listening to Bastille’s new album ‘Wild World’. Honestly at first I was like ‘NO what have they done, where is the deep meaningful music that connects to me on a deep personal level.’ I just had to realise that things don’t have to sound ‘deep’ to be ‘deep’. And it has taken me a little while to get used to it but I love their new sound and the songs touch a deep personal level and once again Bastille have produced something that I love and will cherish… I am bit funny with music, I will usually love anything given some time sat listening to it. I honestly think that’s what it takes. Sure you can know quite quickly if a band isn’t for you. I am very guilty of missing out on stuff simply because there isn’t a song that grabs me. But if you take an album and just really listen to it a few times, you let it grow on you. You start to find those little bits that you love and the messages that hold true. I find that there is an uplifting sadness to ‘Wild World’. It is a world apart from their first album… but that’s a good thing because I don’t think I would be happy with the same thing again. As I hold the first in such high standing; if ‘Wild World’ was just a clone then it would not only have been a lesser experience, it might have tarnished the first.
BUT woah that is the most opinion I have ever had publically about anything, so please forgive me I shall go back to drawing pictures of a lewd nature and what not.
Thank you for reading and if got through all of that you are awesome! Have a hug *hug*!
I’m not exactly sure what my solution apart from to just shut up and do something about it… so yeah. I guess I will let you know how that goes.
Haha I really didn’t plan for that to be a thing but there you have it. I do have a question. Would anyone be interested in reading my writing? I presently have two story projects on the go. One has fallen by the way side and the other I am taking my time with. They aren’t anything FA related… like we all know why you’re here ;). They are projects that to a level I am trying to consider as something I would really quite seriously like to get published one day. So yeah drop a comment or a pm letting me know what you think about that. I’m not expecting anything but it could be a cool thing to do.
I’ve been listening to Bastille’s new album ‘Wild World’. Honestly at first I was like ‘NO what have they done, where is the deep meaningful music that connects to me on a deep personal level.’ I just had to realise that things don’t have to sound ‘deep’ to be ‘deep’. And it has taken me a little while to get used to it but I love their new sound and the songs touch a deep personal level and once again Bastille have produced something that I love and will cherish… I am bit funny with music, I will usually love anything given some time sat listening to it. I honestly think that’s what it takes. Sure you can know quite quickly if a band isn’t for you. I am very guilty of missing out on stuff simply because there isn’t a song that grabs me. But if you take an album and just really listen to it a few times, you let it grow on you. You start to find those little bits that you love and the messages that hold true. I find that there is an uplifting sadness to ‘Wild World’. It is a world apart from their first album… but that’s a good thing because I don’t think I would be happy with the same thing again. As I hold the first in such high standing; if ‘Wild World’ was just a clone then it would not only have been a lesser experience, it might have tarnished the first.
BUT woah that is the most opinion I have ever had publically about anything, so please forgive me I shall go back to drawing pictures of a lewd nature and what not.
Thank you for reading and if got through all of that you are awesome! Have a hug *hug*!
Salads are also a good alternative; They fill you up without having any true merit. I've found a salad dressing that is both satisfying enough that with simple leafy greens I can enjoy a salad or two each day.
Another thing to do is cut down on bread- This might seem problematic, and you'd be right; Muffins, doughnuts, bread, and even sandwiches have bread (Le gasp!) so if you are to use bread, I'd suggest a multi-grain variety which you can find enjoyable.
Meal replacement shakes are also a good idea; They're costly though, so if you can't get the ones that are already made, Try smoothies. That way you can customize your smoothie to taste how you want, and even add protein or vitamins that you are lacking on a daily basis.
As for your current weight; Try pokemon go. Doesn't have to be much, but using it to walk around the block or so could help a ton- Walking is important if you don't already do it, and if you do, try bicycling instead. Perhaps a nature trail of some sort to just casually listen to music and ride about.
Aside from that? Light weights during idle moments would help. Basic exercise like jumping jacks and stretching in the morning can do wonders.
As for pokemon go, it is a no go xD; I live in the middle of nowhere with bad signal. My main problem at the moment is that by the time I get home it is so late. I eat dinner and have time for little else before I have to et stuff ready for work the next day and sleep. I'm lucky that i am on my feet all day at work so I am getting some activity- I am just taking in more than I am buring off I think... but you are right I just need to make time for small things as every little helps.
Again, thank you.