Hey everybody, I'll try to keep this one light.

In an effort to raise some scratch for MFF, I'm going to try to go through a bunch of stuff and sell as much as I can. Should I use that $ to pay off medical debts & get my license back? Yeah I probably should. But I need this vacation for my sanity's sake. So I may post things in the near future, probably with a $ amount obo. Because I need to let go of some of this stuff. There will be books, possibly clothes (I'm plus size so a lot of my stuff works great for bigger girls and transgirls with bigger shoulders), movies, and I'm honestly not sure what else yet. I've got a lot of vintage knitting machine stuff...like, thousands of USD$ worth that I'm willing to let go for considerably less than its worth, because I just want it gone.

I'm also going to offer up short story commissions (they will take priority over my freebies, as freebies exist as such) with pricing totally negotiable. SFW & NSFW, I'm going to post my acceptable vs unacceptable content journal up here in a little bit.

I'm not sure if this next part is I hit a wall or I hit a breakthrough...I'm clearly having a depressive episode. I'm sad. I'm hurting. But I acknowledge that he's not coming back, I'll never get to be stepmom to his beautiful daughters that I just adore, and I'll never hear him say certain things to me again. I also acknowledge that that's okay. He deserves his happiness just like I deserve mine. Idk that the people I'm with now will be the people I'm with forever, the last couple relationships have more or less made me rather cynical about happily ever afters. What I'm discovering is that my happiness starts with me, even if the metaphorical black dog is sitting next to me. So I need to sit down with my support system and figure out some serious goals, create pathways to reaching them, and make a rewards system for along the way.

I started writing down goals, and some of them conflict. But I think I'm going to post them here so if anyone has anything constructive to say, it'll give me a fresh perspective. Keep in mind it's my journal, so if you're just gonna be a butt, I'm going to ignore it. :)
Be published by one of the big fandom publishers
Be published as a romance writer in mainstream fiction
Get into ElectroSwing music
Get a job in the mass communications or publishing industries
Move to Texas
Get married
Have 1 or 2 kids
Live in a house (that isn't my parents') again
Do more voiceover work
Own my own side business
Work from home
Go back to college
Get a teaching degree
Get a massage therapy certification

I'm just typing to type at this point, so I'll stop this one and start working on the content journal. :) Thanks for listening, guys.