Sorry I fucked up so badly. Living with a lifetime of trauma, of erasure of my heritage, of being looked down upon, belittled, abused tends to make one hyper-vigilant, and thereby, quick to act irrationally; especially so upon the realization of one's true identities, or because of one's triggers

I fucked up a lot last year, and for that, I'm genuinely sorry. I wish I could undo the harm I did to so many people, and have them back in my life, but I know that isn't possible. All I can hope is that if our paths cross in the future, we can at least be civil, and that they understand I'' trying my best to be a better person. To work through my trauma, my disabilities, and to ensure I don't cause the same harm I did before.

To Teagan, to Kris, to Demi: the issues I brought up with you were legitimate, and you ignored them like most people are wont to do, but I am sorry for how I reacted; it's an easy thing for a Scorpio's stinger to strike when she's used to having to fight to live.

To Paige: you never deserved the garbage I said; it was my own fear getting the better of me. I hope you see this someday and know that these words are sincere.

To anyone else: please, be gentle with me — I am but a fragile pup with many old wounds and scars, and I can frighten easily, but I'm really trying to live a life of compassion and kindness in a world that offers very little of either to a non-binary, disabled Jewish trans woman.