*give you a huggle*

Alright, I'm going to be blunt and harsh here (as you know me as), but please know it's not because I'm angry, but trying to help you out as a friend.

So anyway, look, there's nothing wrong with having depression and etc., but you can't keep using it as your crutch for seeking/wanting attention as I notice you do every time you have these kinds of rants, because after a while, it just makes you come off as selfish and not really caring about other people's feelings besides you and what you want. And it also just makes me feel like you aren't trying to better yourself. I feel ignored and like a ghost pretty much all the time, regardless of how I try to socialize. But do you see me complain about it? No. Because I realize that the world doesn't revolve around me, and I need to be patient. Because, as you said, yes, people can be busy, they may not always be at the keyboard, some can be playing video games, or doing who knows what else. You can't expect to have people constantly cater to your every whim; it just doesn't work that way, and it never will. You have to learn to be patient. It's a virtue. You seem to think the world hates you or whatever for some reason. Just drop all that negativity dude. You have to. Because as we can see, it is deceiving you with falsehoods and eating you up whole. Have you ever considered the fact that maybe you really are getting on some people's nerves (not me by the way) with your constant episodes like this? You probably drive them away from you because they're not interested in your negativity. Think about it. I don't think anyone dislikes you or is ignoring you, but you keep telling yourself these things and letting your mind control what you think, so ultimately, you are just conditioning yourself to keep having these negative thoughts. It is a thing that happens; I know because I have similar issues.

The more you keep doing this, you are just going to keep making things worse for yourself. I can't recall the amounts of times where I've given you advice and you told me that you were going to be fine and not care anymore, let it all go or whatever and etc., but I guess no matter how many times people try to help you, I still keep seeing these rants from you, whether it's on Discord, SL, or even here. Do you go to therapy? Do you take meds? Maybe try meditating (I could use some of that myself). If you don't do any of those things, well hey, maybe it's time to start. You need to take better care of yourself. You don't deserve to constantly be having these issues.

Well, that's my take on it, probably nothing you haven't heard from me before. I'll always be your friend, Oxide, as you have never proven to me a reason not to be. But just because we're friends doesn't mean that I will ever coddle you, and I know you know and appreciate that.

Oh, and I forgot to add, you should not ever care about what people think of you too much. Not everyone in this world can please one another or get along, but hey, that's life, and we just have to accept it and move on. There are plenty of other people out there for you to meet, and with how friendly and outgoing you are, it shouldn't be much of an issue. So so what if some people dislike you. Oh well, that just means that they probably weren't worth your time to begin with. So drop it and just continue your search looking for friends that are worth your time. This planet has like seven billion people on it, I'm sure you can pick your crew out from amongst them if you just work on yourself better.

Best of wishes.

i thank you for that