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...you fear no one will ever understand you.
...you fear everyone--or at least the majority of everyone--online will never believe or understand your excuses for taking so long on things, whether it be for be a naturally slow artist, having too much work piling up, having clients you have to finish for before them, or your own mental disorders getting in the way of things.
...you fear everyone believes you're just hiding behind your own issues to be lazy.
...you fear that everyone you love and/or respect secretly dislikes you and is just putting up with you to keep up their image or not hurt your feelings.
...you fear that you might actually be delusional and insane and just convinced that these mental and physical issues are there, and that they're not real, and that there's nothing you can do to fight past them because your delusion feels THAT REAL.


I know this is all just in my head, I know these aren't true, but I can't stop them from overwhelming me! The worst part of having these paranoid thoughts is knowing that that's EXACTLY what they are, nothing more, BUT STILL CAN'T ESCAPE THEM. It's like living in a lucid dream... I know it's not real, but I can't out of it, it just keeps happening without my conscious approval, and still feels so real that it's really convincing and terrifying...

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