*otter hugs*
I wish you the very best and hope you start feeling better soon ^~^

(lemur hugs)

Thank you! I hope so too!

I'm always saying I'm not a fan of drugs. The side effects are just one of the reasons why (relying on them is my main hate for them). For what it's worth, hun, I'm with you on the "not taking" front. Your mother just wants what's best for you, but sometimes what we're told is best simply isn't so. Sometimes there's an alternate and better way. Perhaps not faster, but better all the same. Necking this pill and that pill... The only people who should pop pills constantly are those with life threatening conditions, not someone with emotional troubles. I mean, you don't give morphine for bruises, ya know?

I'm going off on one, I know, but I just hate how society has become so reliant on drugs to fix all their problems. I'm not saying holistic medicine is better, god knows that hippy shit has killed enough people, but it's gotten to a point were "professionals" are more like legal drug dealers. :/ It's easy to say they help you with your condition, but it's just a lie. You take pill after pill and all it does is mask the problem, never deal with it. In the end, you're just constantly running, hiding behind drugs to pretend you're fine.

As a psychologist, I loathe prescription drugs designed to "aid" emotional and mental conditions. The vast majority of problems within a human being can be resolved or at least controlled with time and effort. Those Harvard desk-lurkers (wink wink) ain't worth their inflated paychecks if they don't understand that.

*sighs* Sorry about that. I just don't believe they should be throwing pills at you. It's a cheap and lazy idea. I hope you can survive the next month of drugs, sweetpea. God knows I hate the fact they're dosing you.

I fucking hate them! I HATE THEM.

I have so much trouble swallowing pills, I know it's psychological and I know how it developed but come on! I even told them they were just like, oh just swallow it with food. I tried that and nearly threw up so no thank you, finally after having an emotional meltdown I was allowed to cut them in half, gee, thanks.

This dumb things make me so angry, like constantly agitated and shaking all the time. It's making drawing very difficult and I'm terrified it will affect my work or ability in the long run. Even as a kid I never wanted to relay on meds, I always thought it would be temporary but it's been almost 20 years and docs just keep me on them or raising the dosage.

I know there are alternatives to drugs, I know there are a ton of things I can do other than forcing four pills into my body everyday. My mom wants me to at least try them for the month, so for her I will.

(hugs)
It's okay and thank you, I hope the month goes by quickly, I can't stand taking these things.
No worries buddy, I hate it too. (hugs and kisses)

For what it's worth, being angry is one of the better moods it can cause. I can wholesomely say anger has helped me survive for years. But, as I've said in our previous chats, my methods don't work for everyone. An innocent thing like you has no place becoming a demon like me. And I, weirdly, have no issue swallowing pills. Scratchs my throat up, mostly cos I swallow them dry and whole. I rarely use them though, but in my case it's due to possible allergy risks as I've only used meds for physical ailments.

Just remember I'm here when you need me, hun. To vent, cry, scream at, whatever, I'm game if it helps you. ^^