What happened?

We used to rp together and such, and I loved how they rped. They were a good dominator making my character sneeze and tickling them relentlessly, but I didn't respect some of her personal boundaries so thus she blocked me, and said how much she hated me for it. She was so kind and i still think is very kind, I just wish I didn't push her as far as I did, and still had her as a friend. She was a ton of fun to rp with. :)

Oh my god...What's her FA? I'll do my best to get you two made-up.

Reality you can't do that. Trust me I have tried, but she wouldn't listen to anything I had to say. She made that very clear, and I did a few wrongs to her which she had every right to be angry at me for.
Secondly, to her I am a monster, and she thinks very little of me, and has even mocked me in a sneezing forum knowing I would probably read it since I still check on her every now and again to see what she's doing. I still like her despite all of this, and I still feel about it.

Funny part is, although she screwed with me a few times since then, I can't get angry with her. Call it a crush, or me caring to much, but when you care deeply for someone even if they hate your guts, I learned I just can't hate her for it, even if some of the stuff she is doing and saying isn't right such as the art being posted here. But as she said, that's neither here nor there, so that part doesn't matter. I just wish I had my friend back and wished me and her would talk and rp like before. I have no ill feelings for her like I initially did, cause it was ultimately I who wronged her, so in the end, I did get what I deserve.

I was also lucky she didn't report any of it at that time, and to that I am grateful to her. I just wish things would of turned out differently, and didn't make her on edge. I have seen people ask to rp with her at her new account, and she saids sorry I can't rp with someone I barely know when before she rped with whomever. Because of me, and her thinking I'm stocking her, she has taken extreme reactions such as this to protect herself from me although I have not gone after her, nor created alt. accounts to go after her. I learned you can't force people to like you, or rp with you. They either do or they don't want to do those things with you and I have no right to ask that of her, nor do I expect her to forgive me for what happened. Its hard to forgive myself, cause when she knocked off contact with me, a part of my heart also went. My friendship with her.

I just wish she would rp like before with others, even if it its not with me, and be her old normal self. Yes while I do check at the sneezing forums, its not for her anymore. I have had many thoughts of wanting to see her, talk to her, explain, and hope she forgives me to give me another chance, but that's more than likely ever going to happen.

I also broke someone's heart that really liked me when I was younger that really liked me, cause I was following God and doing what I thought at that time was right. I deeply regret that now, and alot of my time has been wasted. But I learned two things, one, don't let life pass you by, if you like someone you need to take the chance with that person, and let them know, and secondly, being more positive, and not being such a angry person all the time. I tried to be more positive, and it has worked, I am alot more calm now. I also learned its okay to be yourself, I'm bi, but I do want to make it work with a female. not a male.

But in closing to this, thanks for caring. But I made mistakes, and I have to live with them. Even if you tried to intervene, it would just end up with you being blocked by her.

That was...a very deep explanation. Anyway I read it all, I see now, I wish I could help, but clearly there is no need. Have a great week.

Thanks for your concern. :)

No problem.