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How to be trash.
9 years ago
Step one. Suck at everything.
Step two. Understand the concept of motivation without having the ability to be motivated.
Step three. Be a burden to all that you love.
Step four. Be only capable of making poor choices.
Step five. Be incapable of changing.
I still don't know if I should've defended myself that night. I think it would have been best to just let the knife slide in. How do people do things? I honestly don't understand. I am incapable of learning anymore and I'm terrified of the inevitable result of not being able to be successful. How do you do it? I don't want to be me anymore, but I don't know how to change. Everything I try ends in pain. Perhaps it's time to go away for a while.
Step two. Understand the concept of motivation without having the ability to be motivated.
Step three. Be a burden to all that you love.
Step four. Be only capable of making poor choices.
Step five. Be incapable of changing.
I still don't know if I should've defended myself that night. I think it would have been best to just let the knife slide in. How do people do things? I honestly don't understand. I am incapable of learning anymore and I'm terrified of the inevitable result of not being able to be successful. How do you do it? I don't want to be me anymore, but I don't know how to change. Everything I try ends in pain. Perhaps it's time to go away for a while.
As for making choices or trying to be successful, at some points you just have to "fake it 'till ya make it." That's what I do at least. *hugs* I had no idea you were feeling this way, but I hope that you will one day see all the good in you that I see.
Love ya buddy. I mean it.