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9 years ago
Will probably delete this, but I thought it might help to get some things off my chest.
I'm sorry to all my friends who I've let down. I'm not here to make excuses, but I can't be everywhere at once. My best friend invited me to a sleepover party at the Science Museum this Friday, but I told her I didn't have the funds to go, as I've been saving up for another friend's get together this Saturday. She hasn't spoken to me since. Not sure what I did wrong...
Another friend surprised me with tickets to see the Game Grumps live (this YouTube duo I've been following for the last 4 years). Unfortunately, the show is the Saturday of MFF. No matter how many scenarios I run in my head, there is no feasible way I can swing both, so I had to cancel the con. This puts my group out another roommate, so now they have to pay the costs.
Drama between my dad and aunt from 3 years ago is starting to resurface. She's coming over for Thankgiving and I just pray that everything goes well, but now I'm gonna have anxiety all the way until after the Holiday is done with.
On top of all this, I'm falling behind at work and drowning in a sea of projects. If it weren't for my kind boss, I would have probably broke down.
All I ask is for people to be patient with me and remember that although my decisions may not be what you like, I have feelings too. This isn't directed at any one person.
Anyway. That's all I wanted to say.
-K
I'm sorry to all my friends who I've let down. I'm not here to make excuses, but I can't be everywhere at once. My best friend invited me to a sleepover party at the Science Museum this Friday, but I told her I didn't have the funds to go, as I've been saving up for another friend's get together this Saturday. She hasn't spoken to me since. Not sure what I did wrong...
Another friend surprised me with tickets to see the Game Grumps live (this YouTube duo I've been following for the last 4 years). Unfortunately, the show is the Saturday of MFF. No matter how many scenarios I run in my head, there is no feasible way I can swing both, so I had to cancel the con. This puts my group out another roommate, so now they have to pay the costs.
Drama between my dad and aunt from 3 years ago is starting to resurface. She's coming over for Thankgiving and I just pray that everything goes well, but now I'm gonna have anxiety all the way until after the Holiday is done with.
On top of all this, I'm falling behind at work and drowning in a sea of projects. If it weren't for my kind boss, I would have probably broke down.
All I ask is for people to be patient with me and remember that although my decisions may not be what you like, I have feelings too. This isn't directed at any one person.
Anyway. That's all I wanted to say.
-K
But in the end, things will work out. Cherish the life experiences from the decisions you make and not the "what ifs". Believe me, I know its NOT easy to do this since I'm still running through many of the what if scenarios of if I would have made a different decision, how would have it affected my friends differently, and would I have had to put up with some of the Drama I'm dealing with now. Most likely, the answer is IF I would have made a different Decision I would have just had a different set of Drama to deal with instead so the outcome would still be not ideal.
Hang in there, if I can get through it so can you :) You are a great person, and a good friend.