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Choosing a fursona for myself
9 years ago
This is a weird thing for me to write about, but I’ve been thinking about what character of mine I’d call my fursona. Originally I conceived Rigel to be it, but I’ve come to really enjoy Pastel. He’s a very simple character to draw, I think he has a lot of expression to him, and I’m kind of warming up the idea of “yes, this is the character that I want to represent me”. I’ve had trouble sticking with a character I think to due fickleness, but there’s something about that bunny that I just can’t turn away from.
At first, I wasn’t sure why that was. I mean, I like simplistic characters, the concept was something I wanted to try for a while, and it’s a fun design, but I’ve tried things like that out before and they didn’t exactly click. I don’t think it has anything to do with me finding out that I’m probably not entirely straight either, although that might’ve pushed me to actually think about it more. I’m thinking Pastel is more like an expression of liberation, or courage, or something. Like he’s sort of a representation of me overcoming a lot of the fears I had when I started liking furry stuff and making fursuits more openly. For example, when I was a kid, I was really scared of being weird or gay, and I tried to hide some of the things that suggested that to fit in (didn’t really work because I still liked anime and video games and people still called me a faggot). In retrospect, middle school sucked dick. Fuck that shit; I’ve never done worse academically or emotionally in my whole life.
Uh, but anyway, another thing is that I’ve genuinely felt happiness whenever I get art done of Pastel, and I don’t think I’ve felt that for other characters. I mean, I enjoy the work no matter what, but there’s just something about getting artwork done of a flamboyant pink rabbit that tugs my heartstrings. And I know that sounds silly, but it’s probably related to the reason I begin crying tears of joy whenever I see beautiful landscapes.
Thinking about it more, I’d say Rigel is more of a furry version of me, whereas Pastel is a representation of things I’d like to be…in a way. Pastel has to do more with confidence, keeping a positive attitude, finding joy in the little things, but also building upon my own interests as well and not being afraid to try new things. I think that’s why I get a lot of commissions of him wearing dresses and stuff too, although that’s probably both a matter of cuteness and an expression of not being afraid. I might draw out some small art pieces as well to express it better.
In any case, I think I’m sticking with the bun.
Sorry if this comes off as somewhat disjointed, but I’ve been trying to gather my thoughts about this for a while.
At first, I wasn’t sure why that was. I mean, I like simplistic characters, the concept was something I wanted to try for a while, and it’s a fun design, but I’ve tried things like that out before and they didn’t exactly click. I don’t think it has anything to do with me finding out that I’m probably not entirely straight either, although that might’ve pushed me to actually think about it more. I’m thinking Pastel is more like an expression of liberation, or courage, or something. Like he’s sort of a representation of me overcoming a lot of the fears I had when I started liking furry stuff and making fursuits more openly. For example, when I was a kid, I was really scared of being weird or gay, and I tried to hide some of the things that suggested that to fit in (didn’t really work because I still liked anime and video games and people still called me a faggot). In retrospect, middle school sucked dick. Fuck that shit; I’ve never done worse academically or emotionally in my whole life.
Uh, but anyway, another thing is that I’ve genuinely felt happiness whenever I get art done of Pastel, and I don’t think I’ve felt that for other characters. I mean, I enjoy the work no matter what, but there’s just something about getting artwork done of a flamboyant pink rabbit that tugs my heartstrings. And I know that sounds silly, but it’s probably related to the reason I begin crying tears of joy whenever I see beautiful landscapes.
Thinking about it more, I’d say Rigel is more of a furry version of me, whereas Pastel is a representation of things I’d like to be…in a way. Pastel has to do more with confidence, keeping a positive attitude, finding joy in the little things, but also building upon my own interests as well and not being afraid to try new things. I think that’s why I get a lot of commissions of him wearing dresses and stuff too, although that’s probably both a matter of cuteness and an expression of not being afraid. I might draw out some small art pieces as well to express it better.
In any case, I think I’m sticking with the bun.
Sorry if this comes off as somewhat disjointed, but I’ve been trying to gather my thoughts about this for a while.
And I can definitely say that my life quality got a lot better when I first got into college. Even though it was the local community college at first, I met a lot of people that helped me out. Plus, having a car meant I didn’t need my parents there whenever I wanted to go somewhere.