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Oh october...
9 years ago
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Ok, I gotta break the silence.
First of all, the reason why nothing has happened quite alot since late september and whole october;
Hospital visit and surgery. Also vacation for a week.
Later september I felt worse and worse and in the beginning of october I called in sick to work due to throwing up.
During the year I have also been away to the hospital three times trying to figure out why I have had these throw up attacks, but that friday... October the seventh I felt it.
I have never felt such pain in my life and I thought I was going to die, and for the fourth time this year I went to the hospital again.
This time though they took me in for an analysis. During the weekend by staying there I got the word what it was. But before I knew what it was I have never felt so scared in my life.
What if it was stress getting to me? What if it was cancer?
It was gallstones in my gall bladder causing the severe pain in my stomach and throw up attacks.
So in a way, I was not anywhere near death but the pain I felt that friday made one thing clear: I was going to surgery.
Also, during this whole time my parents had been planning an trip for the whole family (with my two older brothers and their respective families as well) and I was there at the hospital risking the entire planned vacation.
An vacation planned two whole years ago, it was going to be something big.
I have never felt so bad in my entire life, I was there, risking the entire planned vacation. They were even ready to cancel the trip for my sake.
But, after the surgery I got the word from the doctors that I could go. Of course, I could not swim or enjoy the sun as much.
Still, the surgery... That was not a fun episode. Dont get gallstones kids, it sucks.
For me getting them I could have inherited them since both my grandmother and grandfather had them.
Although after the vacation when I was back at work I suddenly realised it was october the 28th... And I felt confused, where the hell did october go?! In the meantime I also manged to forget my code to my credit card lol.
Thats the level of confusion I felt when life returned to normal.
But now I am back, with four scars on my stomach healing back up. I need to get back into drawing again, it feels like an eternity since I did something.
Now that I returned to work I have also realised that there are drawing programs for phones, so I have downloaded one of them and am currently experimenting with it. It looks waaay rougher than anything I normally do, but it is cool to draw on the go.
Could be that I upload something from my phone someday.
On a another positive note:
Tomorrow the artist Perturbator comes to sweden! To Stockholm! And I will be there! If I could only describe the emotions going through me...
His music... Goddammit. I have told myself that before he stops making music I need to see him live, and tomorrow is the day.
Which is also the first time in my life I to an concert... I should go out more lol.
First of all, the reason why nothing has happened quite alot since late september and whole october;
Hospital visit and surgery. Also vacation for a week.
Later september I felt worse and worse and in the beginning of october I called in sick to work due to throwing up.
During the year I have also been away to the hospital three times trying to figure out why I have had these throw up attacks, but that friday... October the seventh I felt it.
I have never felt such pain in my life and I thought I was going to die, and for the fourth time this year I went to the hospital again.
This time though they took me in for an analysis. During the weekend by staying there I got the word what it was. But before I knew what it was I have never felt so scared in my life.
What if it was stress getting to me? What if it was cancer?
It was gallstones in my gall bladder causing the severe pain in my stomach and throw up attacks.
So in a way, I was not anywhere near death but the pain I felt that friday made one thing clear: I was going to surgery.
Also, during this whole time my parents had been planning an trip for the whole family (with my two older brothers and their respective families as well) and I was there at the hospital risking the entire planned vacation.
An vacation planned two whole years ago, it was going to be something big.
I have never felt so bad in my entire life, I was there, risking the entire planned vacation. They were even ready to cancel the trip for my sake.
But, after the surgery I got the word from the doctors that I could go. Of course, I could not swim or enjoy the sun as much.
Still, the surgery... That was not a fun episode. Dont get gallstones kids, it sucks.
For me getting them I could have inherited them since both my grandmother and grandfather had them.
Although after the vacation when I was back at work I suddenly realised it was october the 28th... And I felt confused, where the hell did october go?! In the meantime I also manged to forget my code to my credit card lol.
Thats the level of confusion I felt when life returned to normal.
But now I am back, with four scars on my stomach healing back up. I need to get back into drawing again, it feels like an eternity since I did something.
Now that I returned to work I have also realised that there are drawing programs for phones, so I have downloaded one of them and am currently experimenting with it. It looks waaay rougher than anything I normally do, but it is cool to draw on the go.
Could be that I upload something from my phone someday.
On a another positive note:
Tomorrow the artist Perturbator comes to sweden! To Stockholm! And I will be there! If I could only describe the emotions going through me...
His music... Goddammit. I have told myself that before he stops making music I need to see him live, and tomorrow is the day.
Which is also the first time in my life I to an concert... I should go out more lol.
