I'm sorry to do this on here, but I feel the need to vent and I figure not many people read journals. Especially mine :)

So it's almost my 24th birthday and another year I'm by myself.
It's not that surprising considering I'm still closeted (I'm starting to come out while in school, a few people already know) and because I'm a pretty shy person.

Alaska doesn't have the abundance of gays or tolerance for gays, lot of drunks, rednecks, and drunk rednecks. (Not all of them of course, just ones I've met)

I've thought about online dating, but idk if I can actually be in a relationship with someone who I've never met, even if we talked on the phone or video chatted, though I should give it a try maybe. Butwho knows when we could meet? It could be months to years before we do, and I don't know if I can wait that long when I'm feeling so lonely now.

It pains me sometimes to see other couples around campus kissing and cuddling with their mates. Not saying they have to stop, just gets hard to see them sometimes.

And if I were to get a boyfriend, I don't know how to be one. I know that maybe sound silly but idk how to be a good BF, so I may try too hard or not enough and lose him.

Sorry again for whining on here. Just needed to vent. Advice might help.