I've been in and out of the hospital and ER a lot lately with health issues constantly making life and being consistent here or anywhere a battle. I am trying to be more active other places since well, this place offers little outlet for that but I don't mind it.

I've mostly been doing commission work outside this site and posting on twitter more as well as using Discord more over Skype considered I really dislike how Skype works and constantly updates/eats up my RAM, freezing so frequently. So if you're wondering where I am most of the time, there are two places right there. If you would like links to them I can privately share that. I would normally post it more openly but with the blocking system here being a bit of a joke that would just open up new doors for people to harass me.

Aside the depressing bits I have some actual good news. I can now stream via Picarto over join.me after many attempts and much struggle I can now stream my art on a more professional and efficient platform. So if you would like to follow that my picarto is picarto.tv/fudodraws for those wanting to follow and keep watch of me.

Another art related update as you may all have seen, I've been somewhat although only lightly been straying away a bit more from Furry / Anthro artwork because lately I've been finding it harder and harder to feel comfortable in the furry community as well as finding it hard to find a comfortable means of relating to it or with my characters. Always constantly questioning, "Am I enjoying this like everyone else? Or am I forcing myself to so that I have a sense of belonging and community?" I'm not shitcanning any of that I just have been on and off about it and trying to get more in touch with what makes me feel comfortable and adapting my art style into one that is all my own instead off following into the foorsteps of a fandom and pandering to it for a sense of belonging that is not sincere or true. I had that with the My Little Pony community as well but do not hate it for that. I'm just growing and changing as a person and need to find out what's right for me.

Also I would like to note out and mention whilst it's totally not shilled or enforced you can see and the ending of my journal post a link to a ko-fi tipjar. Truth be told with my life and health as it is a lot of my commission earnings that don't get put on bills and the typical cost of living is going on medication, transportation to and from there and more or less that nature of thing. If you'd like to show your support you're welcome to via that link although it's certainly not demanded or required. I just thought I would not that for anyone wondering what it is. "Ko-Fi" is basically a virtual tipjar linked to my paypal where you can "buy me a coffee" aka make donations in multiples of $3. It's more or less to show support for those that want it or just to tip them for their services and to show appreciation. A few other artists I follow and speak with use it and I've donated to them in the past.

With all of this rambling aside I would like to thank everyone who's put up with my tangent for this long and wish you all the best. I apologize for the lack of content and will try to post more as soon as I'm able to.