many days have gone by and i just cant help but think from time to time, that i really have no one i can talk with like i did with you, for so long you were my confident, i could just open up to you with no hesitation and tell you what was bothering me and i always got the most kind words in return, words that made me smile and look ahead and take on the challenges that life threw at me, even when i was romantically involved with someone else you were there to hear me cry and to tell me that he did not deserve me, and you were right, so because of this great friendship that we had it even after i had hurt you, i thought it was a no brainier to peruse a future with you, you were the closest person in my life and i trusted you blindly so i just thought "this is the one, he has to be because no one had shown me such devotion" and i leaped, just let myself fall into this new exciting thing, and for the first time I saw you it was bliss, i just had the most amazing time, holding your hand while we walked places, and that first time I heard you introduce me every so proudly as your Boyfriend, that made me feel a sun in my chest and just like i had won the lottery, but as we all know that this grim existence never lets us keep a happy moment for too long then it had to come, we have had a time even after i left your side, calls and messages and we were happy or so i thought, but after i had reached into my my chest and reaped my heart of to offer it to you, i had it handed to me back shortly after, i couldn't help but wonder what had i done wrong, everything was so great, we had a plan and everything seemed like it was a done deal, i really thought this was it, FINALLY my happy ending, but as always it turned out it was someone else's happy ending, after everything we told each other, that we would be together forever and all that nonsense one says when he is high on Oxycontin, i was truly surprised when you came one day and told me you were giving me heart back, it was ok, it is not the first time it is handed over to me but this time it was just marked, it bared a mark of what once was the great true love i felt for you and also a reminder that thing would never be the same with you, I know you wanted us to still be close friends, but how could I? how could i let myself open up when i was clearly not enough of a reason for you to take a chance and stay, so it truly makes me sad to have lost such an amazing person in my life, I can sure call you friend and we shall be, but never the same.



i really felt like i needed to get that off my chest! damn.. and i shall be drawing something to represent this too, i dont really know if anyone reads this or not, but i just felt like i needed to let this out, and i dont really have anyone to do so with so why not just and empty place haha