Anxiety attack are becoming more and more common and I'm starting to feel true depression. I can't be myself around my parents and it's taking a mental tole. This has been going on for years and steadily getting worse and a lot worse sense I got hit by that truck. I can't even dress slightly girl around my parents or they freak out, and I've been denying that side of myself for 5 years because of them. I won't be able to hold out here for another year assuming i even move out the day i turn 18, that's 367 days that i can't handle unless my counselor pulls out something for me. So, on Tuesday I see my counselor, and I'm going to bring up my femboy side. I've mentioned my parents don't accept my girly side but I never went into detail. 2 things can happen from their. Either she think that it's a bad thing and tries to get me to stop and that would just kill me mentally.... or she think it's ok and I can bring in my parents to talk to them wither her. Hope and pray..... that's all we can do. This is tearing me apart. Lacy (My girlfriend) painted my nails the other day and I cried. I felt whole look at them, I cried because I felt like myself, I was content with who I was. And my parents made me wash it off because it's "to feminine" and guys can't be that apparently... I felt my soul tear, this was so painful i don't really feel anything right now other than an ache in my chest....