I'll still be active in my den rooms, but last month had hit an interesting low for me. I had a bit of a mental breakdown, and threatened to kill myself. It was loud and boisterous due to my inability to hurt myself due to being a coward, but I definitely had a lot of suicidal thoughts and had even asked my roommate to shoot me with his gun. It wasn't pretty.

Everything exploded from there, and now, a month later, life is getting back into a rhythm, albeit a slightly different one. I am going to therapy now to keep my mentality straight. I am looking after myself now. Ultimately, my desire to be with people probably led to my complete downfall and crumbling of situations. I will still be checking my FA, but I think I will be going quiet for the most part, and avoiding going out of my way for people like I used to. Too much energy wasted on such tiny payouts. Focussing on myself and those I feel closest to, but otherwise keeping away.

If you need to get a hold of me, send me a PM or find me on Discord. I'm a pretty pleasant guy, but I am not going to be compromising as much anymore. It just isn't worth it.