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Heartbeats
9 years ago
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A lot has happened in my life recently. I have been on such an emotional roller coaster that I'm reminded of being in High School all over again, that and...other things. I don't know if anyone reads my journals, and until now, I would have been fine not getting any responses.
It would be lovely to get some feedback on this one though.
Why? Because a lot of the things I'm about to describe are important to me...like super important to my life. In fact, these are the things that can define the existence of a person, and a part of me would like validation for the experience of these things.
First thing that would make my heart skip a beat: at the end of October, I had a crush on
thelonesergal - a person who is most definitely a strongly developed character. However, things went sideways over a dispute that generated other disputes, and caused me to reverse my feelings for her and her for me. The havoc that followed caused me to question my impression of Ferzu and the ENTIRE Furry community. It would also make for a cheesy rom-com if anyone needs plot material for a story.
As that was happening, thing two happened: the client I work with at my day job had some internal shake-ups and pulled all their contracts, leaving me with nothing to do. So I was politely given a lay-off for the rest of the year, with a possibility of loosing my job entirely.
Third thing to happen is I joined the pack Lunar Shadow. They are an awesome group, but membership is by invitation only. I am not alpha, beta, or even gamma there...but you may ask
userarmirashane98 for more information.
Fourth - the US election. My country democratically elected a leader who is famous for being divisive, crude, and hurtful. I have a number of friends in the Fandom of many diverse qualities, and I am afraid for their peace of mind. Hopefully, this fear is unfounded.
Fifth thing to happen is I got a termination notice for the place I rent for my workshop. After more than 5 years, the guy I pay rent to decided he wanted a closer friend there than me. Now I need a new place to put my scores of thousands of dollars worth of material and equipment before starting any new projects in wood, metal, or stone. Ugh.
Sixth and final thing to mention is something that has caused me to skip quite a few heartbeats. I started talking romantically to another person, and fell. The two of us are now mates - in the Fandom, elsewhere online, and hopefully, we will meet in reality. She is known as Shadownelly in some places, and I would brave all the torments nature can throw at me to support her and her transition. <3
I am glad I am young, or the number of missing heartbeats I have had this November could have put me in cardiac arrest. For now, I am simply trying to adapt.
On a final note, I am in progress of developing a reference sheet for my 'sona. I may make one for my mate too.
It would be lovely to get some feedback on this one though.
Why? Because a lot of the things I'm about to describe are important to me...like super important to my life. In fact, these are the things that can define the existence of a person, and a part of me would like validation for the experience of these things.
First thing that would make my heart skip a beat: at the end of October, I had a crush on
thelonesergal - a person who is most definitely a strongly developed character. However, things went sideways over a dispute that generated other disputes, and caused me to reverse my feelings for her and her for me. The havoc that followed caused me to question my impression of Ferzu and the ENTIRE Furry community. It would also make for a cheesy rom-com if anyone needs plot material for a story.As that was happening, thing two happened: the client I work with at my day job had some internal shake-ups and pulled all their contracts, leaving me with nothing to do. So I was politely given a lay-off for the rest of the year, with a possibility of loosing my job entirely.
Third thing to happen is I joined the pack Lunar Shadow. They are an awesome group, but membership is by invitation only. I am not alpha, beta, or even gamma there...but you may ask
userarmirashane98 for more information.Fourth - the US election. My country democratically elected a leader who is famous for being divisive, crude, and hurtful. I have a number of friends in the Fandom of many diverse qualities, and I am afraid for their peace of mind. Hopefully, this fear is unfounded.
Fifth thing to happen is I got a termination notice for the place I rent for my workshop. After more than 5 years, the guy I pay rent to decided he wanted a closer friend there than me. Now I need a new place to put my scores of thousands of dollars worth of material and equipment before starting any new projects in wood, metal, or stone. Ugh.
Sixth and final thing to mention is something that has caused me to skip quite a few heartbeats. I started talking romantically to another person, and fell. The two of us are now mates - in the Fandom, elsewhere online, and hopefully, we will meet in reality. She is known as Shadownelly in some places, and I would brave all the torments nature can throw at me to support her and her transition. <3
I am glad I am young, or the number of missing heartbeats I have had this November could have put me in cardiac arrest. For now, I am simply trying to adapt.
On a final note, I am in progress of developing a reference sheet for my 'sona. I may make one for my mate too.
