Gah. How to balance those 2 ambitions? xP Artworks take so much time and leave me expended while writing likewise does the same. On top of work and other distractions in life or fulfilling social needs. I feel like i shouldn't be stressed, yet the fear of time running out or simply watching my life burn away just makes me wanna try doing both arts at once; and does interfere a bit with efforts to get out there more. I feel like i'm not social enough with my family or the fandom even, but anytime i try all i feel is a chasm that makes me worried that I'll neglect those projects.

The feeling of peace would be nice, be it a rhythm on how to balance things or just finding new appreciation for how to enjoy my flow. Egh