Looking at my drawings and just feeling meh. Like I am starting to lose passion again. I know practice makes perfect and your art still has ways to grow but you can only take so much of people saying well your art isn't worth it or it needs to be better quality. I try with what I have. I am not a digital artist. I admit that. I love doing things traditional. I also draw what I want to draw but it's not always what is hip or new. I know my style is like almost everyone else's and not unique at all.

I didn't have art classes I taught myself how to draw. It was an escape for me from the abuse I suffered. I have heard your art isn't worth. Why do you bother. You aren't going to be able to make a career out of it. No one is going to buy your stuff. Give up.

I stopped drawing for awhile because I didn't have time to do so. I used to work 40+ hours and I went to school for 13+ that isn't even counting home work either.

So yes my skills are rusty.

I also have a bad habit of beating myself up when looking at other talented artist and I get discouraged even more.

I hardly ever get a oh you did a good job. Not that I am looking for vindication but I get more often then not oh it's not worth it.

Those words stay with me. That is what I think of every time I pick up a pencil. Then I look at the drawing or sketch and think why do I even bother. Why do I even try any more.

Ever since I was a kid I have wanted to be an artist but more and more I am realizing it is an empty dream.

My style is not unique or am I able to confidently do digital. I am losing the confidence to do traditional art as well.

My art is priced so cheap because I don't feel I deserve more then what I am charging.

I try my best but sometimes my best isn't good enough.