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I hate it when...
9 years ago
...I'm doing something, say drawing, and I get a sudden flash of someone I knew decades ago and my mind won't stop until it's wondered all about their life since - what they might be doing now and such. It's a sudden fierce obsession that can sometimes take hours to dispell and my mind has to dust off all of these memories I've buried in some not quite forgotten corner of the mental vault. Chances are pretty good that just about every one of them hasn't spared even a notion about me since the last time we were physically together.
What I hate even more about this is while I remember all of this past stuff, some going back almost 40 years, I can't remember where I put my cellphone I had in my hand just a couple of minutes before or whether I paid a bill without checking half a dozen times to be sure or what shortcuts I'm using for what program and sometimes forgetting what type of computer I'm on because I use both iMac and PC almost every day.
What I hate even more about this is while I remember all of this past stuff, some going back almost 40 years, I can't remember where I put my cellphone I had in my hand just a couple of minutes before or whether I paid a bill without checking half a dozen times to be sure or what shortcuts I'm using for what program and sometimes forgetting what type of computer I'm on because I use both iMac and PC almost every day.
BlitztheDragon
~blitzthedragon
That happened to me last year. I ended up spending an evening looking up my primary school teachers from K-5 to see where they are now. Found most of them.
Dharken
~dharken
OP
I only remember the last names of a few of my teachers. Most of those are from high school. I tried looking up at least a couple but didn't have much luck with that. I had more luck finding people I knew way back when in grade school. One of them became a photographer with a nice looking website. I never sent anything to him. How do you introduce yourself after three decades of not seeing someone? I did end up finding someone I knew in college through Facebook and tried communicating there to catch up on things but that fizzled after only a couple of messages so I haven't bothered doing much but watching the stuff they share instead. I guess the saying about how you can't go back applies pretty well to me.
Gemini Albon
~dragon359
I have a similar issue, but instead of wondering what they're up to, I tend to have the part of 'what went wrong' stuck in my mind for awhile, partially as a reminder to never do what I did in a given memory again.
Dharken
~dharken
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I've had a lot of that too. My grandmother had friendships that lasted for decades despite not living in the same state with those friends or even having the instant communication the internet provides. I have that convenience but I might as well be living on Gilligan's Island, the moon or my own personal dimension for all the good it usually does outside of a couple of people. I just don't seem capable of connecting on that lasting personal level and since I'm the common denominator, I must be the problem in the situation but it isn't down to any one thing that does it so it must be the complete package.
