Emo Journal. Be warned.
16 years ago
Friend: "I'm currently smashing my face against the keyboard until an RPG falls out of the computer."
So, I'll no doubt take this down after a while, but for now, I just wanna get this off my chest.
As many of you know, me and Halo have been split up for about a month now. Many of you have been dragged into this and have heard either one side or both sides of the story. As such, I'm fed up of this shit.
Even now, I can't do anything right. Through my comments on FA to Mara-san and by telling her that I was able to upgrade my Skype to have the ability to call the USA for £3 a month with unlimited usage (Namely so I can speak to all of my friends theres, but also certain people) I was 'rubbing it in her face'. As such, she took it upon herself to threaten me with a description of the things she's done with her new master.
I know this is going to sound really shit, but this has really hurt me. Granted, I'm not completely over her, but by trying to achieve this seemingly endless task, I end up provoking more onto my shoulders. I meant to be seeing her at the next meet to get a couple of my old items back, but after this, I can't even find the will to go to it, incase a confrontation or something happens. I know I hurt her, but a part of me still cares for her, and hearing/seeing her with her Master will have..well..results I have no idea what they will be. I know I'll be with my friends, but..eugh.
I'm sorry for this all, I just need to get this off my chest. Right now I just need a cuddle TvT
Curse my sodding heart for this >V< /emo
-Az
P.s Halo, I don't care if you read this. Bitch about me, complain about me, I just don't care anymore. After I get my stuff back, I doubt I'll ever be able to look at your face again. We're dead. Not that it matters to you.
As many of you know, me and Halo have been split up for about a month now. Many of you have been dragged into this and have heard either one side or both sides of the story. As such, I'm fed up of this shit.
Even now, I can't do anything right. Through my comments on FA to Mara-san and by telling her that I was able to upgrade my Skype to have the ability to call the USA for £3 a month with unlimited usage (Namely so I can speak to all of my friends theres, but also certain people) I was 'rubbing it in her face'. As such, she took it upon herself to threaten me with a description of the things she's done with her new master.
I know this is going to sound really shit, but this has really hurt me. Granted, I'm not completely over her, but by trying to achieve this seemingly endless task, I end up provoking more onto my shoulders. I meant to be seeing her at the next meet to get a couple of my old items back, but after this, I can't even find the will to go to it, incase a confrontation or something happens. I know I hurt her, but a part of me still cares for her, and hearing/seeing her with her Master will have..well..results I have no idea what they will be. I know I'll be with my friends, but..eugh.
I'm sorry for this all, I just need to get this off my chest. Right now I just need a cuddle TvT
Curse my sodding heart for this >V< /emo
-Az
P.s Halo, I don't care if you read this. Bitch about me, complain about me, I just don't care anymore. After I get my stuff back, I doubt I'll ever be able to look at your face again. We're dead. Not that it matters to you.
FA+

Love you hunny
Love ya too
And it be hot in your room D: Get the fan! Please? =3
*Huggles* If you ever need someone to talk with.. I'm here..! *Holds you close*
Just stay safe... <3
*Holds* <3
it's good to get this off your chest, keep it inside and it would only make it worse for you
no worries ^.=.^
The only thing I can say is that there were wrongs on both parts but the only thing that was wrong with this is the descrpition of what she said too you. Its one thing to brag but its also another to toy with ones emotions.
Bragging is just thing that humans, dragons, pheonixes ect do because it could be a sense of achievment in its own way.
But the toy of emotions is one other thing that is just not really that enjoyable the same way works for bragging.
I just hope you 2 get better (sorry for the therapist kind of forward ^^;;;; i have a tendency of doing that)
wish there was something i could do : /
though i never seem to be able to talk to yah
Im sorry to hear your hurting hon. If you need feathery shoulder to sob on hon I'm more than willing to listen.
Love is a double edged sword...It can lift you to new heights, but also shatter your world, and no matter how much it does we always come back for more. You have a good heart love and that means more than anything else in this world. Keep your beak up because you will always be loved one way or another.
-=G=-
Me and Wye are here for you...
*snuggles tight*
Ironic.
YOU, ARE, CRAZY.
Let me put it this was as I am well versed in break up vocabulary.
1. From Az's POV he was just exclaiming that he can get cheap calls to friends that include a new lover - From Halos POV Az is saying I am doing all the things with this new person that I never would do with you.
This is what is called (or what I have coined) Phonetic Logic. Phonetics is when something is spelt as it is said and sometimes that spelling isn't always right. Phonetic Logic takes something and sees it in a logical way of how it is spelt out but isn't necesarily right.
ie: Because Halo is hurting she sees the exclamation as an attack at how 'shit' she was as a girlfriend (a feeling that her mind is hitting more and more into her like a nail driven into a cross) and thus retailates in how she feels is the appropriate manner eg: Talking about her new lover and their escapade in a way that will inflict the pain she is feeling.
Womens and mens minds work on different levels. We know this from when a woman says "does my butt look big in this" despite all her protestations that she wants honesty she wants you to tell her how nice she looks not a logical yes or no answer. Men see things as more black and white where women see things overlaying other things. This is egaterated when emotions run high and even the most logical of person can do/say illogical things in the heat of the moment that feel like the logical thing to do.
What third parties need to do is not provoke either party, the two must battle their own path.