I wonder and don't very well understand how some people get started with their art, and being known, though I have an idea of how it works. It seems like such a difficult obstacle to surmount. I tend to get caught up in the process of things to the detriment of actually doing them. For example, for drawing I like researching pens and paper, finding out what tools a particular artist uses, etc. I see the incredible artwork they create, and I want to make things as good as they do. I get caught up the methods and tools, but I know better. All you need to make great art is a no. 2 pencil or random pen and any old paper. I don't need fancy pencils or markers. Sure, it may be more difficult to use whatever you have rather than premium things, but you don't need the best stuff to make the best art. I just like nice things though.

I get distracted, too. I so badly want to go onto youtube and watch the new uploads by all my favorite youtubers. I want to play Hearthstone I want to look at Twitter and Google+ (yes I use Google+, I've met good friends there). I have a very, very hard time focusing, and it's frustrating.

Is drawing hard? Yes. But what seems almost harder for me is to just start drawing. It's so hard to sit down, pick up the pencil, and draw things. After I get started I can still get distracted and have to fight urges to do other things, but starting is the hardest part.

Part of me is very angry at myself. I think I'm being horribly inefficient and wasting so much time.

I could leap out of bed in the morning, make coffee and eat breakfast, and then get right to drawing and other projects. Instead I take a long time to get out of bed, I take my time eating breakfast, and then I can't get myself to sit down and draw! I may wander around and pace, go sit on the couch, trying to collect my thoughts, trying to plan out my day, or do any of scores of other things that are just wasting time.

I've had the saying "all work and no play" ("makes Jack a dull boy") in my head for a while, though before I think I had the same idea, just without the aphorism. It feels like I've been doing nothing but play though, and that makes me feel horrible, because I haven't been doing anything.

I'm in college currently, and last semester school took up a lot of time. After putting so much effort into school, in my free time I then want to do things that entertain me. I've been working so much already, I don't want to work anymore.

Drawing does take work, but it's not the same work that school is. Drawing is so much easier and more fun than school, but it does still take some effort, and I find myself wanting to do the thing that requires zero effort in my free time (gaming, youtube, anime, etc.) instead.

I'm working out all these things (and many more), and I think I'm making some progress, but it's slow.