take time and handle yourself.
I recently beat my depression and u believe you can too.
if you need to talk I am here I won't bother you on the subject but if you wanna just talk about random I can do that <3

If most of what I had to post wasnt Christmas related, I would just wait it out, but most is Christmas, so I have to get it posted. And it adds to my depression to not get art posted that I have finished. >.< It will be nice to get everything posted. I have a couple of things for you, too.
Maybe we can talk soon. Thank you.

Hugs !

Thanks for the hugs. I need them.

HUG HUG HUGS!

*hugs tight and smiles*

oh dear hope things work out for you. Take all the time you need.

I was thinking of asking again if you are still interested in the collab we discussed about half a year back that I'd let you use as a base in the future too. Apologies but i did get quite busy.

Thank you very much.

I am still interested in the collab. Things have been busy for a lot of us.

Yeah always have been. kinda forgot what we were supposed to do though.

I dont really remember either. lol

Lol i suppose we can always reformulate a new plan XD

I think that sounds like a good idea. ^.^

yep yep.

*gently hugs and comforts* Just hearing from you and confirming you are at least still breathing is one of the best xmas gifts I could ever recieve from you hun. Stay strong and when the time is right you can always note me if you want to vent or chat in general. Thanks for always being awesome and remember that no matter the distance, you are surrounded by those that love you. May you and the lil ladies have a wonderful new year.

*hugs and smiles softly* Im still here. I dont plan on going anywhere anytime soon. I may be silent sometimes, but Im still around. When things calm down a bit, I would love to talk more. Thank you so very much, my dear. We are watching movies before ringing in the new year. I just hope that 2017 is a better year for me. I wish you a good new year as well.

agreed, and hey since there is a 7 in the new year it might mean some good luck for us all this year.

I do hope that you are right. 7 is my lucky number.

-gives you all the hugs- take it easy hun, get the backlog posted then post thig either in batches or rigt after you finish them like I do.

If you ever need to vent about anything then don't be afraid to note me hun

*hugs and smiles* I still havnt posted everything, just what I needed to for Christmas. I still have plenty of other stuff to post. I dont have regular internet at home, so I cant post as I finish things. I have no job right now, so it is something I do without. Even when I get a job, I have to make sure it is something I can afford before I get it. >.< So I can only post in batches, as I get things done. I email stuff to myself and post from my phone, usually.

Thank you very much, I really appreciate it.

Failure only leads to success, my suggestion, close commissions, and just work on your art until people start asking, even if it takes a while to do, just keep plugging away at it, you will get someone asking for your work.

So far my failures have not led to success. Im not officially closed for commissions, and so will not turn away if someone asks, Im just not advertising it. I wont be doing that till I can actually update my price sheet. One thing I have enjoyed about commissions that I have gotten is the chance to edit the bases and try and create something new that the base wasnt exactly made to do. Ive added things to bases to make them match what Im looking for. I do like your idea of just working on my art. I might do some kind of picture for all of my characters, and mix things in for my mate, and possibly friends as well. Gift art is always fun. I just dont see anyone asking for my art, though. The only time that has happened is when I post something about being open for things, and it was NSFW work. >.< I muchly prefer clean art myself.

Content of the image never really bothers me, depending sometimes though, but all the same, it may seem like you're going nowhere, just keep going, because that one time you actually stop, you're literally foot steps from your goal, in the end though, it's down too asking yourself, are you enjoying yourself with the current state of your work?

Im not really that happy with my drawn work. I like my colored work, and think my skills habe improved there. I just need to take time to work on actually drawing. I just usually dont know what to draw.

I can help you there, I'ma send you a note.

*Gives you a tender hug* So why does your title sound so familiar... Oh I know, I have voiced the same words about myself a few times in the last 41 years of adult life. No these words "Because Im a failure" do not belong and should not be spoken by you.

Have you kept working and moving forward on little bits of artwork? Have you looked at things for ideas and then done "hey this will work here..." or the such? Have you seen beauty where others have missed it? Have you tossed ideas around in your head about a scene you thought about doing? If you have answered yes to any or all of these questions you are not a failure.

Right now you are dealing with things that are outside of your control and have no control over them. You can only control things that you can control, when you can't control things, that doesn't make you a failure. It only proves you have no control over it, that's all.

You only become a failure when you give up on you. Don't fall into the trap of blaming yourself for things you have no control over. Doing that is a dead end, I know I did it for about the first thirty years of my life. It didn't change a thing other than making me miserable, left me feeling un-cared for and unloved. That's no road you want to tread.

Change how you see things and things will change. Look for the upbeat things in life, you see something funny, draw it. See something that brightened your day draw it. Look a the things you have and enjoy them. Like draws in like, don't forget that because what you think does play into the world around us. This is coming from a very grayed muzzle... Each and every gray hair I have, I earned by the way along with a few others have given me.

HUIGGGGGZ femm

<3 You are such a wonderful person Femm <3 The road is never smooth the entire time, I am trying hard myself to remember that.  Shaiyla You are so loved, I am here if you need to talk, if not, that's ok too I just want you to know I am here. Keep coloring hun. I have recently found out how relaxing it is even if I am just coloring on bases. I still draw, I am still far behind in a lot of things right now. But I'll finish them. Also your package should reach you within a week or so <3 I do not get commissioned often at all, but I still love to draw and color <3 Don't lose your passion hun

Thank you for the kind word, I was sharing some hard learned lessons from my own life. I have been so depress that I didn't care if I lived or died... At lest with death the emotional pain would have been over. If I can share what I learned with someone and make their day better, or their path a little smoother then what I went through was worth it.

*hugs softly* Thank you very much for your kind words and much encouragement. Life has been rough lately, and has made me feel down and out. Im still feeling that way, and think that my you gest can tell and is attaching herself to me. She wouldnt even go visit her dad today because she was crying to be with me. >.<

Sadly, I cannot draw. I can color rather well, but cant draw very well at all. I have tried, and have just never been happy with how it looks. I have gotten better at editing bases to change them to fit the characters that I put in them. But I still cannot draw.

My title here was more my feeling of failure over getting things posted. I had had pictures on my phone and ready to post so ce just before Chrisrmas, and I hadnt gotten them posted. That is what made me a failure here. I could have posted things before I did, but just hadnt gotten around to doing it and kept putting it off for no good reason other than procrastination. And it even took me forever to get them on my phone to post when it shouldnt have. A big part of my depression is my tendency to procrastinate things that I shouldnt.

Thank you again, for your kind words, dear friend.

You are very welcome hear heart. As for drawing... a well known artist told me that it's not till you hit about a thousand drawings do you get to the hang of doing it. Part of my issues is motor control of my hands... but that doesn't stop me from doing drafting.

Just keep plugging away at it and keep hammering away at it it will come

I most likely have arthritis in my wrist, so that does hinder me sometimes myself. I do what I can when I can. I just dont usually have time, or the inspiration, to actually draw something. I am trying to teach myself. And I have found I do traditional drawing better. I want to figure out how to do digital lining, though.

I understand... to many years on a shop floor or a boat's deck is hard on the body. All you can do is keep playing with it and find your own style and work from there.

*cuddles gently* I am so sorry to hear things have been so hard for you. Femmpaws said it so well darling. <3 You are not a failure dear one. You are loved so so much by people here in the community, and I am sure there are those that love you in your real life too. Keep your chin up sweetie. "Do not fall into that trap of blaming yourself for things you have no control over." Those particular words  femmpaws said to you relate to me so strongly too. I have struggled with depression all my life and still, every day I struggle with that. I am trying hard not to blame myself for everything.

I love you dear one, as a dear friend to me. *hugs tightly* Here is to you finding and gaining the strength to get through whatever has troubled you so.

*cuddles close* I wish I could say that things have gotten better since posting this, but they havnt yet. Heck, they might have even gotten worse. >.< Found out today that my ex has taken my email address and just used a different domain for it for himself. He has his own email, but just had to take the unique one I created for myself and make use of it for himself. Made me rather upset. At first I thought it was my email he was posting, but then noticed the only difference was the yahoo for his and rocketmail for mine. Rocketmail is a part of yahoo, even. So I know he used that on purpose.

I am pushing on and doing my best at keeping my head up. When my youngest refused to go with her dad today for their visit, she and I went to the park and walked around for a bit and played around some. It was cold, but we made it fun. I just wish I had it in me to do things like that more often. Sometimes it seems like my energy has just been drained most of the time.

I do understand that the things that have gone wrong are outside of my control, for the most part. Im more upset with myself over the things that have gone wrong that are within my control. Like getting art posted when it is just sitting on my phone waiting to be posted. That was my own failure at not getting that done when it could have been done sooner.

I cannot wait to get the package. ^.^ I will let you know as soon as I do get it here. <3 I also love you as a dear and close friend. I thank you very much for all you have done for me, dear.

Hey make the time to have enjoyable time with your little ones and let that inner child of yours play with them. Growing up is way over rated.

I do try to. On New Years Eve, we stayed up playing games till about 2 am. I just dont do it enough.

That's good you had that time. I know it's hard to do things like this been there and did that.