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Frustrating Accomplishments
9 years ago
I did a lot this year.
I made it to three foreign countries: Mexico, France, and Israel. (The Brazil trip got sabotaged.) I judged 11 international MTG events, and the world championships for Epic. I wrote two presentations on inclusivity, which were both well-received. I campaigned to get myself promoted to L3, and I'm geared to try again soon, as well as being re-certified to teach and may even get to do so in January. I also have trips to CA, PA, and Brazil planned for the new year.
But even with all that and more, there's some challenges. I'm still struggling to fit into the "regular" work week, and money won't just keep coming to me forever. I'm good at budgeting, but there are limit. My brain is messed up something fierce, and it's been hell trying to get help, body and mind. And that's without being able to reconcile the hollowness I still feel without the people I care about. This is, of course, to say nothing of the disastrous mire that's just emerged out of the already hazardous cesspool that had been the US political machine.
But I do have a new pet, and my lioness is always steadfast. I am resolved to plan and restructure, and continue until I have something that works. I have promising leads to local work and work overseas. I have support that doesn't envy me or supersede their insecurity over my ambition. And that network grows, both with new nodes and ones that are taking some time and emotional elbow grease to repair.
Things are scary, but I am surviving, with help. Where I find it.
I made it to three foreign countries: Mexico, France, and Israel. (The Brazil trip got sabotaged.) I judged 11 international MTG events, and the world championships for Epic. I wrote two presentations on inclusivity, which were both well-received. I campaigned to get myself promoted to L3, and I'm geared to try again soon, as well as being re-certified to teach and may even get to do so in January. I also have trips to CA, PA, and Brazil planned for the new year.
But even with all that and more, there's some challenges. I'm still struggling to fit into the "regular" work week, and money won't just keep coming to me forever. I'm good at budgeting, but there are limit. My brain is messed up something fierce, and it's been hell trying to get help, body and mind. And that's without being able to reconcile the hollowness I still feel without the people I care about. This is, of course, to say nothing of the disastrous mire that's just emerged out of the already hazardous cesspool that had been the US political machine.
But I do have a new pet, and my lioness is always steadfast. I am resolved to plan and restructure, and continue until I have something that works. I have promising leads to local work and work overseas. I have support that doesn't envy me or supersede their insecurity over my ambition. And that network grows, both with new nodes and ones that are taking some time and emotional elbow grease to repair.
Things are scary, but I am surviving, with help. Where I find it.
